Saved By Grace

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2011-01-19T12:57:00.003-05:00

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Scripture Release

2011-01-18T07:15:00.001-05:00

About two weeks ago my teen was presented with her book for this new semester of Bible study.

Along with my teen's new book our Co-Pastor's wife (her Sunday school teacher) gave her a CD from Scripturerelease.com.

It is an excellent resource for scripture memorization. My family has enjoyed hearing the scriptures in song especially singing along.

This is a great tool especially for the little one's to memorize God's Word so that they may store it in their hearts. It's great for adults, too:)

It is available for download here for free!

Oh, how I love your law!

I meditate on it all day long.

Your commands make me wiser than my enemies,

for they are ever with me.

Psalm 119:97,98

Counting My Blessings

2011-01-17T07:00:00.003-05:00

1. Did some grocery shopping..it was about time. Thankful for the pack of chicken still left in the freezer but after having chicken for four days in a row...we were ready for something different:)

2. Had time alone with my teen crafting. We took a quick trip Michael's and made a banner with both of my girls names which will hang in my teen's room.

3. The daughter of a SIC arrived from Ecuador with her grandson and I pray that the Lord may continue to restore the lives of each family member.

4. Had a surprise visitor at church on Sunday. She arrived with her beautiful daughter that we didn't get to meet since she was born (she is already 3). God, may she find her way back to you!

5. Snow expected this week...and we got just about 6 inches..I think:)

6. Visited with my mom this Monday...lovely as always:) She does enjoy time with my daughters and I...and I must admit....so do I!!!

7. Took another quick trip with my sister Karen to Michael's craft store. Glue dots!

8. CVS deal for this week. These (6) Air Wick air fresheners retail at a whopping $83.94. On sale, matched with store rewards I roll over plus coupons I paid a total oop (out of pocket) $3.00 ( which $2.00 was on tax).

God is so good because prior to the sale I was speaking to my husband about getting some air fresheners for the home.

9. Target was having their semi-annual toy clearance sale and I was able to purchase some toys to have on hand for upcoming birthdays at 75% off regular price. I am so grateful because the Lord knows all things and He knows my desire to give and save as well. You are so Mighty and awesome dear Lord!!!!

10. I have been given the privilege to participate during the church service by giving our FIC the welcome to church service and reading any announcements for the week. I remember something that a BIC testified about. He mentioned that the presence of the Lord is so tangible by the alter. I am in agreement with the brother because I know that when I stand up there whether it be to do the welcoming or give a testimony...His presence is overwhelming.

In your presence, Lord I can see the condition of my heart.

In your presence, Lord I notice my frail condition.

In your presence, Lord I know I am absolutely nothing without You.

Help me Lord, to seek Your presence.

Help me Lord, to love being in Your presence.

Counting My Blessings

2011-01-08T16:25:00.001-05:00

1. My SIL's baby belly is getting so big...can't wait to know what the Lord has blessed her with. 1 more week until we know!!!

2. Thankful for all that Holy Spirit is doing in my marriage. He is showing me areas that His precious grace will carry me through.

3. My husband's co-worker gave us a huge bag full of books. The great thing is that the books are in great condition.

4. Target clearance was great this week!!! Was able to collect all these items for Operation Christmas Child for $0.25 each!!!!

5. Received a great idea from Judy to get candy canes for the boxes. They don't expire until 2013 and they were $0.25 cents each for a box of 60:)

6. Thankful for more clearance deals at Target this week: all items pictured were less than $0.29 each!

7. Received these books totally free in the mail. Started reading Rebel With a Cause...so far so good.

8. Thankful that Bro. Harold has been regularly attending service

9. Grateful for all the patience that my teen has with me during homeschooling. Having a 17 month old baby running around I have not been able to give her 100% of my attention however, I purposed in my heart to put the baby more on a learning schedule as well to divide my time among the girls. Help me Lord!!

10. My baby girl turned 17 months this week:)...awwww

11. My baby is learning her ABC's and a few words, too!!!

12. My SIL invited us to have dinner at her home which is by the way so beautifully decorated. We had a lovely time and laughed lots!

13. I have taken a break from blogging and feel just great about it.

14. My mom had about a week off of work and I enjoyed spending just about every day with her. She is such a delight to be around. She is so giving and has a servant's spirit. Thank you Father for the loving and generous mother you have blessed me with.

15. Pampers galore.....at .09 cents each for brand name diapers that is a great bargain!

16. We had another congregation visit us for Tuesday Prayer Service and the presence of the Lord was tangible. We were interceding and the Lord does certainly answer!!! Although I was taking care of some of the babies downstairs...the presence of the Lord was so evident...I know I was blessed!

17. To give my bookshelves a more orderly look I took a great idea from here and covered cardboard boxes with scrapbooking paper to store my books. I think it came out pretty nice!

18. We are continuing evening prayer at my mom's house on Wednesday's and I have been able to see the Lord's mercy especially over my mother's life. I thank you Lord that she has opened her home so we can fellowship and pray for one another.

First Counting My Blessings post of the year...woo hoo!!! I truly enjoyed reading last year's posts and was thankful that I journaled all the lovely blessings that the Lord has bestowed upon my family and I.

Seeking His Kingdom First

2011-01-03T17:45:00.002-05:00

May the peace of the Lord be with you all!

May the New year that has just begun be filled with more of Him and less of us!

My family and I welcomed the new year at church, and I really couldn't imagine a better place to be than in the house of God to seek His blessing for the new year that we are about to embark on.

Before arriving to service I took a moment to call my dad and was able to tell him that I loved him dearly and that my desire for him is to draw near to God this year. Our conversation was brief but nonetheless it filled my heart's desire to be able to speak to him. I was also able to speak to my older brother in Ecuador which is always so lovely to hear his loving words of encouragement for me.

The congregation was given the opportunity to testify on how we have seen the Lord's love and mercy throughout the year. There are many instances that I have seen the mercy and grace of Jesus Christ woven throughout out the year.

I shared with my FIC the amazing opportunity I was given to be able to see my dad after not seeing him a little over 10 years or so. As I started to express my gratitude I could not hold back my tears as the feeling of seeing him all over again started to flow through my mind. I was certainly grateful to the Lord to be able to see my father once again. It was a lovely reunion in which he was able to meet my husband and my daughters for the first time.

We rang in the new year praising Jesus Christ! It was an amazing service!

I have been away from blogland for a few weeks now and I enjoyed my time away. I have been meditating on the Lord and what He would have me do and say through tHis blog. And basically I want to stick to sharing what He presses upon my heart to share. I started this blog with one reader and it was such a lovely moment in time. I didn't feel the pressure to write, we just had fun with blogging and sharing experiences in Christ. Somewhere along the lines that vision became blurred. I want to return to the "ancient paths" (Jeremiah 6:16).

My desire is that all that I do bless His mighty name and bring me closer to HIM.

My husband also stepped up and shared at the New Year's Eve service that the Lord spoke to His spirit Matthew 6:33, "But seek first His kingdom and His righteousness , and all these things will be given to you as well.". I want to live out this verse for this year.

As a mother and wife I have a tremendous responsibility to be that wise women that builds up her home and trains her children in the ways of the Lord. I realize that it is not by any means a task which I can take lightly...I cannot afford to slack off.

May the desire of your heart be to seek first the Kingdom of God in this year that has already begun knowing confidently that then and only then will all other things be added to you!

Shalom beloved!

Counting My Blessings

2010-12-14T08:00:00.001-05:00

1. Thankful to be able to recognize the Lord's hand in our finances. You are our provider!

2. Went upstate to Woodbury Commons outlet mall and invited my mom to come along with us.

It was extremely cold but we were able to get some great deals on clothing at the Children's Place.

3. The Lord pressed upon my mother's heart to give my husband new work boots. They are the warmest boots my husband mentioned to me. He is very thankful to the Lord, YOU are always on time!

4. Enjoying my sewing machine. These past two weeks I have been able to sew my baby about 3 skirts and even sewed matching skirts for the girls. They looked adorable:)

5. My SIL went for her first sonogram and we got to see pictures of her baby. I could clearly see his little hands...awww!!

6. The Lord has been ministering me on my relationships with certain people. It's all about You, Jesus and not about me!

7. A BIC and his baby celebrated birthdays this past week. May the Lord continue to bless them in abundance and may the fear of the Lord never depart from their lives.

8. Another little SIC celebrated her 2nd birthday this week. God, may the desire of her heart be to always serve You and follow in Your footsteps.

9. The past two weeks have been great coupon using weeks. I am so thankful Lord!!!

10. My husband has been on vacation this week and we have been enjoying this time together. The girls have enjoyed having daddy home. My husband was able to dedicate time in prayer and fasting as well.

11. This week has been especially cold here in NYC. Thankfully since my husband has been home I was able to run errands without having to take the baby outside. My teen enjoyed seeing the sights and holiday displays over at 34th Street in Manhattan.

12. We had another awesome vigil. We had two neighboring churches visit and share the Word of God with us. One of the churches made 100 tamales for us!!! They were delicious. One brother even praised the Lord with his accordion which sounded awesome!!!

13. My husband had some issues with his debit card and we were able to resolve the issue fairly quick and pain free:)

14. My husband is so grateful that he was asked to lead the praise and worship on Thursday's service.

And My God will supply all your needs according to

His riches in glory in Christ Jesus.

~ Philippians 4: 19

Breaking Free: Deprogramming and Reprogramming

2010-12-11T23:00:00.003-05:00

But encourage one another daily, as long as it is called Today,

so that none of you may be hardened by sin's deceitfulness.

~ Hebrews 3:13

I began reading this book in January and it has been almost a year since I have started on this journey. I pray that the sister's that have started on the journey to breaking free with me have enjoyed the wealth of information that the book has provided. This book in conjunction with the Bible has been a powerful tool in unmasking lies.

A few months back, my husband and I purchased a new computer. Now we had one to many computers and we were considering selling our old computer. I spoke with a computer tech at Staples and asked what I had to do in order to get all of my personal information erased from my computer and get it ready to sell. The tech mentioned (if I remember correctly) that the computer's hard drive had to be completely wiped out (erased) and the hard drive needed to be re-programmed. All of my personal information needed to be deleted so that it could never be accessed again. Do you see where I am heading to with this illustration?

Before I was born there were generational curses operating in my family that had to be broken. As a child there were words declared over me that had to be bound and now words of life had to be loosed.

There was a whole lot of "deprogramming" that needed to be done.

After, I received Jesus I was now given the task, with the revelation of the Word, to begin reprogramming. I had to be open and honest with myself about lies that I had believed and rebuke those thoughts and see whether it was myself or situation I was living, through the mirror that is God's Word.

Instead of believing the lies of the devil I have to choose to meditate on the truth of God's Word.

Beth states that, "We possess the mind of Christ (1 Corinthians 2:16) but we still have the full capacity to think with the mind of the flesh." I know the Truth of the Word, however, the devil does not miss an opportunity to introduce a lie and get my brain rolling with a deceptive thought. I admit I have taken the bait more times than I care to remember.

I must practice "the process of applying God's truth to the matter" that is trying to build a stronghold in my mind.

The devil is the father of all lies. Any thought, action or word contrary to the Word of God over me, my family, my finances, my health, etc. simply does not come from God. My task is to identify it, rebuke it and proclaim the Truth of God's Word!

"What are some of the lies that you have

begun to identify in your life?"

Breaking Free: Tearing Down the High Places

2010-11-30T09:00:00.010-05:00

Your enemies will cower before you,

and you will trample down their high places.

Deuteronomy 33:29

As I read this chapter the Lord just reminded me of a quote I heard from Pastor Sarah Utterbach. She said,"My present confession will be my future habitation." What a jewel of a quote.

In the back of the book Beth Moore has listed discussion questions for each chapter of the book. This week I will focus on one of those questions listed.

1. How can unforgiveness cause a person to become an idol?

Anything that we place above God in our thoughts is an idol. Beth makes a great point by mentioning that for example, "If we don't surrender our minds to Christ, the loss of a loved one can take us from appropriate grief and mourning, to a lifetime of agonizing captivity.".

I thank the Lord that I have not had to grieve over the passing of a loved one but can relate to what she states about grieving and mourning appropriately.

When I first received Christ I was battling with events that occurred over the course of my life. I would relive those moments in my mind and cry out in sheer agony asking why those horrible things had to happen to me. I would be in church enjoying my time hearing the Word and fellowshipping with my new found family. However, once I got home and the still and quietness surrounded me, I was tormented by thoughts that I felt I couldn't control. As time passed, I became comfortable carrying around my hurts and sorrows. I battled with depression and would isolate myself because the enemy had deceived me into thinking that no one would possibly understand my troubled heart (depression is a generational curse that operated in the women of my family. I thank the Lord that He has given me the authority to break all generational curses in the name of Jesus). There were unresolved hurts in my life that I HAD to ask the Lord to heal and to help me get over them.

As the loving and caring Father that He is, He did! He showed me that I had unforgiveness in my heart towards certain people and therefore I had created a high place/alter for them in my mind and life. I had elevated them to a position that only God deserved to have. I was holding on to these individuals as well as holding on to what they did to me. He showed me how to "mourn" over the situation by allowing the healing balm of the Holy Spirit to cover and heal my wounds. He would constantly remind me that it was all over and that HE was in my life now. He would work out my past for my present good. I could surrender my hurt to HIM and He would heal. And heal He did!

Through honesty (admitting that I was hurting, that I was angry, resentful) and confessing all sin I was healed. I am thankful for my Pastor and the elders of my church who have lovingly dedicated time to hear me out and pray with me. I am thankful that the Lord has surrounded me with men and women of God who stood in agreement with me for my deliverance.

Thank you Lord, for those who are willing to stand in the gap.

If there are hurts from the past, certain events or people that consume your thoughts or that you remember from time to time and still feel hurt, guilt, resentment, hate...seek help.

The Lord has come to give us life and that we may have it in abundance. Living with tormenting thoughts is not living out that abundant life.

In my walk with the Lord I have learned that reading and studying the Word of God will only be effective in my life if I decide to believe what it says and live it out.

Be blessed precious ones.

"Do not judge, and you will not be judged. Do not condemn, and you will not be condemned. Forgive, and you will be forgiven."

Luke 6:37

Counting My Blessings

2010-11-29T07:00:00.004-05:00

1. My sister and her tot stopped over for a quick visit and I was able to give her a little something I crocheted for her.

2. My mom generously offered to stay with my girls while I ran into Manhattan for a quick errand.

3. I bought my daughter a much needed winter coat and after she removed the coat she was covered in feathers! Thankfully, the store accepted the coat back and although I wasn't refunded my money I was able to exchange it and get her a "church" coat!

4. Wednesday night prayer at my mother's home was amazing to say the very least. The presence of Holy Spirit is beautiful.

5. CVS and Rite Aid deals were GREAT! I was able to get some more goodies for my mom, teen and husband.

6. I had so much fun prepping for our Thanksgiving dinner. My teen made the potato salad which turned out AMAZING! The cherry cheesecake was a hit with the family.

Flan (Spanish style egg custard)

7. Enjoyed dinner with my FIC at church Thursday evening and then continued feasting on the Word of God. A brother who we love dearly preached until the wee hours of the morning! It was awesome. We got home at about 3:30 am from service and the Lord strengthened my husband who had to be at work by 7:00am!!!

8. My sister in law's, brother in law, confessed Jesus Christ as his Lord and Savior during our Thursday night vigil!!!!!! Answered prayer!!!!! Thank you Lord for all that you have done, are doing and will continue to do in the life of our brother Eli!!!

9. Friday evening we came together as the body of Christ to share in the Lord's supper. It was beautiful to be able to share with my FIC and remember the death and sacrifice of our Lord and Savior who carried my sins on the cross.

10. I purchased a sewing machine this week. God is so good! I was eyeing a machine but was not willing to pay the price. On Black Friday I noticed that Target was selling a machine for a great and reasonable price. It was even lower than the sale price they advertised a few weeks ago.

11. With my new machine I was able to sew my baby a skirt. It took me a while to figure out how to do it but was glad with the results:)

12. My sister and her family came over for dinner Saturday evening. My sister brought her game of Trouble and we played two rounds! We laughed and laughed as the girls cheered us on. I didn't win:(

13. Later on that evening, my mom stopped by for dinner and she testified on how she spent time with her co-worker preaching the gospel. Her co-worker was eager to hear and asked questions also. Lord, have mercy on her.

14. Received a rebate check for about $40.00:)

Lord, thank you for all that you have shown Yourself to be. I am amazed at your transforming power. I am not the same women that met you a few years back. I have been renewed and my sins you remember no more. Thank you, Lord! Thank you ever more!

Boxes are Done and Delivered!

2010-11-20T16:08:00.005-05:00

Last night my daughter and I finished up packing up the last few boxes for Operation Christmas Child. As we packed, we talked about God's love and His divine providence. His mercy has overwhelmed our hearts.

I truly feel thankful to be able to participate hoping that these boxes touch the lives and hearts of the children who will be receiving them.

My teen included a fun fact sheet about the family, a gospel tract and a picture of us 4!

Boxes ready to be delivered!

Earlier this afternoon we stopped by a local collection site. The lady testified on how the goal was to collect 350 boxes and they have collected 733 so far! She was so thankful to see how the Lord exceeded her expectations for providing boxes to ship overseas.

Glory to GOD!

Please watch this video and see the joy ONE box has given this young boy!

Counting My Blessings

2010-11-19T20:45:00.001-05:00

1. Visited my SIL's home this past Saturday. She prepared a delicious meal for us (chicken soup, rice, salad, tortillas, beans and cheese). We were able to share of Jesus' love with her husband and his cousin. Praying that the Lord works a miracle in their hearts.

2. Headed out to Target with my girls and my mom. We were both able to get some grocery items at a good price. Also purchased yo-yo's for the OCC boxes.

3. My daughter and I packed up some of the boxes that we will be dropping off this year. It is our desire that each child may feel the love of Jesus Christ as they unwrap what He has prepared for them.

4. My mom prepared dinner for my family and my sister's family Monday evening. She made a yummy spaghetti and chicken dinner. It is one of my fav's!

5. My SIL went for her first prenatal visit and glad to hear that mom and baby are well. She is due mid-May:)

6. Headed out to the library to do homeschooling there. My teen completed her studies for the day and I had a lovely time reading books to my baby. Bumped into my sister with her two girls there. Karen is just to funny:)

7. Prayer at my mom's house again this week was a blessing. Thank you Lord, for that specific prayer!

8. My teen and I prepared our first ever apple pie. Although, I did not make the crust from scratch this time I certainly want to try to do so. My husband really enjoyed it...Glory to God!!

Sliced apples

Teen kneading dough

Apple mix with sugar, flour and cinnamon

Ready to go into the oven

Done and ready to eat:)

9. Michelle's husband John preached this Thursday on Joshua 7. May we love each other enough to bring correction!

10. Thankful for all the love and understanding that the Lord is weaving throughout my marriage.

11. Crocheted a beret for my sister. I hope it fits:)

12. Had an interesting conversation with a SIC and I hope that the Lord breaks all chains to the past that do not bring her closer to HIM.

Moses summoned all Israel and said to them,

"Israel, listen to the statutes and ordinances

I am proclaiming as you hear them today.

Learn and follow them carefully."

~ Deuteronomy 5:1

Counting My Blessings

2010-11-15T07:00:00.001-05:00

A few days late posting my CYB's. This is for week Nov. 7th - Nov 12th.

1. Going to BJ's a few weeks back I lost my baby girl's shoe.

So this weekend we headed out to find a replacement. This is what we bought for her:)

2. A beloved brother and his wife stopped by and visited the church on Sunday. He gave a word of love and encouragement to the congregation from the LORD!

3. Enjoyed a lovely Saturday afternoon at home. We stood home and lounged about.

4. Rite Aid deals...I am totally thankful for what I was able to get this week!

More for my boxes:)

5. Farmer's market this week proved to be just lovely. Got some fresh onions and lots of carrots (carrot bread?).

6. My teen surprised me with breakfast this week. She prepared for me peanut butter and chocolate chip pancakes (weird sounding...but oh so good!), scrambled eggs and sausage. It was so thoughtful of her. Thank you my love!!!

7. My husband was able to go over to my mom's house and meet up with my sister and her husband for prayer. It was such a blessing for him...Praise the Lord! (My baby fell asleep and we decided no need for both of us to stay home. So he went over and brought the blessing home:)

8. My teen helped out with chores around the house this week. She is such a great helper of mine:)

9. My SIL and my BIL celebrated there Earthday's this week!!! Woo hooooo!!!

10. Received some great freebies in the mail this week including a full pack of gum and the tiniest bottle of olive oil:)

11. My husband is such a dear. His boss discards the coupon inserts that come in his newspapers and my husband always keep a look out for them and asks his boss for them. Thank you for the sweet gesture, my love:)

12. So thankful that the Lord's precious Holy Spirit is ministering the life of a young boy. Along with his mother and 9 yr. old sister they just started attending our church.

13. Made two batches of sofrito (spanish marinade consisting of onions, peppers, garlic and any type of herb you want to include. All ingredients get blended in the blender.)this week. Tried it out on steak tacos I made on Friday and it sure gave a delicious taste to the steak:)

Peace and joy my bloggy friends.

May you have a blessed week in HIM!!!!

Breaking Free: A View From the New

2010-11-11T07:00:00.002-05:00

For though we live in the world, we do not

wage war as the world does.

The weapons we fight with are not the

weapons of the world.

On the contrary, they have divine power

to demolish strongholds.

We demolish arguments and every pretension that sets itself up

against the knowledge of God, and we take captive

every thought to make it obedient to Christ.

2 Corinthians 10: 3-5

The previous chapter I studied about the steadfast mind from the perspective of the Old Testament. This chapter I compared it from the viewpoint of the New Testament.

Satan wants to get us to a place of where we are doubting the power that is in knowing and believing God's Word. In 2 Corinthians 10:4b-5, the scriptures read that, "We demolish arguments and every high minded thing that is raised up against the knowledge of God, taking every thought captive to the obedience of Christ." Arguments will rise that try and make us question God's promises to us, question our identity in Christ, however if we are saturated with the wealth of God's Word we can refute all lies and fiery darts from the enemy and remain focused and in communion with the Lord.

How do we take our thoughts captive to the obedience of Christ?

With the Word...the BIBLE!

When the enemy tries to attack my identity, I refute him by telling him that I have been created in the image and likeness of God (Genesis 1:26), a chosen race, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, a people for His possession (1 Peter:9). When the enemy tries to attack my finances, I declare, "I have not seen the righteous abandoned or his children begging bread." (Psalm 37:25).

I re-enforce the importance of studying God's Word to my daughter. I tell her that she must be equipped with God's Word to be able to fight the war that the enemy is trying to wage and he has declared the battlefield her mind. I thank the Lord, that my teen truly loves HIS Word and studies the Bible. There are times when I see that she is in her room studying the Word and that confirms to me that she is also aware of the war brewing against the believer.

Beth shares this in her book:

1. Every stronghold is related to something that we have exalted to a higher position than God in our lives.

2. Every stronghold pretends to bring something we feel we must have aid, comfort, the relief of stress, or protection.

3. Every stronghold in the life of a believer is a tremendous source of pride for the enemy. Let that make you mad and determine to stop giving him satisfaction.

The enemy will stir up pride in us in order to keep strongholds from being broken. The sacrifice pleasing to God is a broken spirit. God will not despise a broken and humble heart. Humility is necessary for strongholds to be broken. Pride is a barrier for freedom to be realized.

Hosea 11:4a says of God, "I lead them with human cords, with ropes of kindness. To them I was like one who eases the yoke from their jaws,"

Satan also desires to lead us. He wants to lead us to disobedience and to perdition. However, my focus has to be on God. My eyes have to be fixed on HIM. When my eyes have focused themselves on anything that is not from the Lord I have lost my way. I thank HIM because His Word is a lamp to my feet and guides me to all TRUTH when I have wandered from the path.

Though the fig tree does not bud

and there is no fruit on the vines,

tough the olive crop fails

and the filed produce no food,

though there are no sheep in the pen

and no cattle in the stalls,

yet I will triumph in the Lord;

I will rejoice in the God of my salvation!

Yahweh my Lord is my strength;

He makes my feet like those of a deer

and enables me to walk on mountains heights!

Habakkuk 3:18-19

Christmas Card Memories

2010-11-10T12:23:00.014-05:00

I have fond childhood memories of Christmas cards. I remember my mom displaying them so beautifully in different areas of our home. I would read all the lovely messages that were written with love to my family over and over again. I remember admiring the cards with the gold embossed letters and beautiful pictures twinkling at night. The cards with the embossing were my favorite.

Our family has not had a Holiday card done, yet. I am so excited that this year we will be doing Christmas photo cards. The hardest part will be which family picture and design to choose.

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Counting My Blessings

2010-11-06T07:00:00.005-04:00

1. Saturday we ventured out to visit Masker's Orchard located in Upstate NY. What a day! I have never been apple picking and I had such a great time. My sister and her family joined us which is always a blessing when we spend time together.

Driving up the mountain was so beautiful.

I didn't even mind when we got lost:)

The orchard even had a small petting zoo.

They had chickens, rabbits, and this lil guy.

Isn't he cute?

My teen enjoyed her pony ride on Strawberry!

Me:)

Can you tell my husband was excited about picking apples?

My 15 mo. old baby girl grabbing a souvenir

After pony rides and a lot of picture taking...finally the apples!

We had a lot of apples to take home...this is just what's left

after I made bread, muffins, sauce!

Oh! and Sunday this is what topped our homemade pancakes...apples:)

2. My camera gave up on me. However, thankful that my sister took many pictures of us enjoying the orchard.

3. Driving back we all stopped by my sister's in-laws for a visit. My BIL's mother had a delicious dinner waiting for us complete with dessert, johnny cakes and coffee. She even blessed us with some johnny cakes to take home!

4. To top off the visit Michelle was there with her family as well!!

5. Was busy making apple muffins, bread, and sauce out of all the beautiful and ripe apples that we picked. My teen was so excited to taste the muffins. Praise the Lord, she said they were really yummy:)

6. Monday my mom invited us over for dinner. She is such a great hostess.

7. CVS run was a blessing. Was able to pick this up for a total oop (out of pocket) expense of $1.65!

8. Wednesday night my sister and her family came over for a prayer session. The comfort of Holy Spirit was present. Thank you, Lord for orchestrating that lovely surprise gathering in your name.

9. Thursday night our Co-Pastor preached a message of hope that was so refreshing to my soul. Thank you Lord...you know I needed that Word. I will wait on you..your timing is perfect!

For the vision is yet for the appointed time;

it testifies about the end and will not lie.

Though it delays, wait for it,

since it will certainly come and not be late.

Habakkuk 2:3

10. Stopped at Target for an impromptu visit and purchased some items for OCC gift boxes and coffee creamer for $0.50 cents a bottle!!! French vanilla...my favorite:)

11. My BIL had work to finish up at church Friday evening and my husband hitched a ride with him to spend some alone time in prayer. Thank you for depositing the desire to seek you, Lord. You are his all.

Breaking Free: A View From the Old

2010-11-04T08:00:00.004-04:00

You will keep in perfect peace

him whose mind is steadfast,

because he trusts in You

Isaiah 26:3

Freedom from strongholds comes from delving totally into the Word of God, applying and believing the truth of His Word. There is a battle going on in the spiritual realm for my soul and for yours. We must dress ourselves in spiritual warfare to be able to battle against the plots and schemes of the devil. We have to be armed with the sword of the Spirit if we are going to win this battle. Are you up for it? I am. I refuse to live anything less than the abundant life Jesus' blood has provided.

When I first came to Christ, I learned that confessing and renouncing sin from my life was essential to being set free from captivity. Spiritually what that did was that it sent a message to satan telling him that I am no longer bound to that sinful nature. All yolks and bondage's created by his deceit and lies were cut in the name of Jesus.

Confession was key. I did not want to have any intimate secrets between the devil and I, so I confessed it all in the name of Jesus. I continually ask the Lord, if there is anything, even hidden in my subconscious that I am unaware of, that He may reveal it to me so that I can confess and renounce.

I approach God in prayer with a sincere desire to be set free. I know only He is able to help me with my struggles. I recognize my need to be molded and transformed by the Potters hands.

Praying the Word of God is such a necessity to winning this war which is set in the mind of the believer. The devil attacks the believer in the area of their thoughts. When Jesus spoke of the parable of the soils we see that the devil comes to take away the Word that has been sown in some people (Mark 4:15). If we are not taking our thoughts captive the door to our minds have been left open and he will make his way inside. We must catch those little foxes that ruin the vineyard. It is our duty, since the truth of the Word of God has been revealed to us to be watching, praying and meditating on the Word so we do not fall into temptation. If we are meditating on things that do not edify or bring glory to Jesus that is a door left open for the enemy to come on in and make himself at home.

Beloved, we must put on the FULL armor of God so that we can stand against the tactics of the devil. Our battle is not against flesh and blood, but against rulers, against the powers, against the world powers of this darkness, against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavens. (Ephesians 6:11-12)

If there is any area of my life that I have not surrendered to you Lord, I am here and I am paying attention. I want to have those ears to hear you Lord, to hear the instructions from precious Holy Spirit who guides me to the truth of Jesus Christ. My life is in Your hands and there is no better place for me to be in than in YOU!

Breaking Free: Part VI Freedom and Splendor

2010-11-03T23:01:00.003-04:00

As I draw near to the end of my journey reading through Beth Moore's book I do know that this is not the end. In fact, this is the beginning of a new and improved walk with Jesus. The Holy Spirit has revealed so much of what is deep in my heart so that there could be changes. The change that needs to occur in me, my marriage, my relationship with God, my role as a mother, etc. all begin with ME. I have the responsibility, after receiving revelations from the Lord, to put to work all the precepts that He has taught me. The road may be rough and rocky but I have the ultimate Rock. I have the One who has breathed the breath of life into me on my side cheering me on.

When you pass through the waters,

I will be with you;

and when you pass through the rivers,

they will not sweep over you.

When you walk through the fire,

you will not be burned;

the flames will not set you ablaze.

For I am the Lord, your God,

the Holy One of Israel, your Savior;

I give Egypt for your ransom,

Cush and Seba in your stead.

Isaiah 43: 2-3

I welcome the changes that have begun in my life and walk confidently in HIM who has all of my days written and planned in His book.

Counting My Blessings

2010-10-29T16:14:00.002-04:00

I am amazed at how this year came and we will be ringing in the new year very soon. I just love to share all that the Lord has blessed me with. Just the other day I was reading some of my older CYB posts and enjoyed looking back to all of God's love manifested.

1. Went over for a quick visit to my mom's house on Monday night. That is one of her days off and I enjoy spending it with her even if only for a moment.

2. My baby girl is so inquisitive. I enjoy seeing her explore her surroundings.

3. Took a walk with my sister Wednesday evening. I feel so blessed to be able to have her not only as a sister but as a friend. We have such a great relationship...thank you Jesus.

4. My husband gave me this piece of scrap mdf and I have a great project in mind.

5. My baby enjoyed playing with one of my niece's toys..and she gave it to her! How sweet!

6. Did my grocery shopping for the month. Was even able to pick up some items for my mom.

Even better, I received $10.00 in cash for renewing my membership!

7. My teen is such a big help when we venture out on our errands. Thanks honey:)

She even folded my laundry..sweet! (That's one of my favorite t-shirts on top)

8. I am grateful for the favor the Lord has blessed my husband with at work. Thank you Jesus.

9. Freebies enjoyed this week...

(2) free 8x10 pictures that I was able to customize

(3) bottles of dish washing soap

toothpaste sample that came with coupons

10. My husband surprised me by making me coffee and and giving me the last chocolate danish.

11. Thinking of the danish...I am grateful that my mom blesses me with fresh pastries.

The Lord's works are great,

studied by all who delight in them.

All that He does is splendid and majestic;

His righteousness endures forever.

He has caused His wonderful works

to be remembered.

The Lord is gracious and compassionate.

~ Psalm 111: 2-4

Operation Christmas Child

2010-10-28T06:00:00.004-04:00

Let the little children come to Me, don't stop them,

because the kingdom of God belongs to such as these.

~ Luke 18:16

What is Operation Christmas Child?

The eldest son of Evangelist Billy Graham, Franklin Graham is President and CEO of Samaritan's Purse. OCC is a ministry of Samaritan's Purse for nearly 20 years. There goal is to reach children with the Gospel of Jesus Christ by sending gift filled shoe boxes to over 95 countries. God has allowed these little shoe boxes to open the hearts of children, their families and even entire communities to the true meaning of Christmas.

Last year Operation Christmas child collected over 8 million shoe boxes.

Samaritan's Purse will be sending more than 250,000 gift boxes for the children of Haiti.

I feel so blessed that I am able to contribute to this organization.

Please take a moment to watch this video.

We pack our boxes with prayer as well as goodies. We have prayed that each child that receives a box gets exactly what they desired in their hearts to received.

Instead of the shoe boxes I use a similarly sized plastic bin with a lid (that can be re-used and is also part of the gift) which I am hoping to purchase this weekend so I can pack them and get them ready to drop off. Through out the year I am tracking sales so I can match them up with coupons and get great deals.

By the Lord's mercy and grace I have been able to get great prices on the items listed below.

Small cars, balls, coloring books, puzzles, jump ropes etc.

School supplies are essential for any child.

This year I made sure to have even more supplies to hand out.

I managed to get FREE pencils at CVS this summer!

Hygiene items such as toothpaste, toothbrushes, bar soap, combs, etc.

Also close to free using CVS extra care bucks paired with coupons!

A sweet treat is a great surprise for these little one :)

Last year my sister gave me the idea to send along in the boxes socks, spoons, cups and bowls. I think that is such a neat idea. My daughter enjoys drinking out of her own pink cup and I am sure these precious children will enjoy it as well.

I have asked the Lord to lead me to give back some of the abundant blessings that He has showered me with. He has lead me to Operation Christmas Child among others.

Prayerfully seek the Lord, and ask Him where He wants you sow a seed of His love to others.

My desire is that we can all give...sow a seed in fertile soil...for the glory of Jesus!

Breaking Free: The Fruit of Unfailing Love

2010-10-26T11:00:00.003-04:00

Sow for yourselves righteousness,

Reap the fruit of unfailing love,

and break up your unplowed ground;

for it is time to seek the Lord,

Until He comes

and showers righteousness on you.

Hosea 10:12

As I continue on this journey with my Lord and Savior, who graciously has revealed so much of my own heart to me, I realize I have much to learn about my Lord. Especially, in regards to His unfailing love for me.

I have tried to humanize God's love but God is not a human. His love cannot be compared with any form of love ever experienced. He loves without condition or expectancy to receive that same measure of love in return. God's ultimate expression of love was giving His One and Only Son so that everyone who believes in Him will not perish but have eternal life. His love is Unfailing!

Similarities can be found in the relationship we have with our heavenly Father and that of our earthly parents. However, earthly parents just do not possess the capacity to love the way our Heavenly Father loves us. Some parents find it difficult to express their love appropriately to their children. My father was not very affectionate and did not always demonstrate his love for his children. In the Word of God, there are details painted in each book of the Bible of His perfect love for us. Since God's love is demonstrative their are numerous declarations in His Word about His perfect love for us, His children.

You will lead the people You have redeemed with your faithful love

Exodus 15:13a

Even if He causes suffering,

He will show compassion

according to His abundant, faithful love.

Lamentations 3:32

Because of His great love for us, God, who is rich in mercy,

made us alive with Christ even when we were dead in transgressions

Ephesians 2:4-5

Those who have chosen to believe in God's unfailing love will bear fruit of that love. Believers who have chosen to receive and walk according to that unfailing love differ from all others. They do not question living in the security of His loving arms. If they happen to fall, they humble themselves, repent and are certain that God's unfailing love will help them back up.

Beth shares these valuable insights:

1. The child of God who trusts God's love possess security in God's leadership

2. The child of God who trusts God's love possess security in salvation

3. The child of God who trusts God's love possess security in God's mercy

4. The child of God who trusts God's love possess security in His comfort

5. The child of God who trusts God;s love possess security in His defense

If the enemy has planted a seed of doubting the unfailing love that God has for you, confess and pray for forgiveness for the sin of unbelief. Rebuke the devil's lies and seek HIM in His Word concerning His love for you.

Let's give access to the Lord so that fruit of His unfailing love can manifest in our lives.

Counting My Blessings

2010-10-25T23:21:00.001-04:00

1. I was able to get some great deals this week on baby wipes for my baby. God divine providence is breath taking. As I noticed that my supply is running low, there was a sale on Amazon and I was able to get over 600 wipes for $11.00 minus a $5.00 amazon gift card I received using some of my swagbucks. Great!

2. My SIL is having her first baby! She is so petite and I am excited to see her belly once she gets further along in her pregnancy!! She is due sometime in May.

3. Received some goodies from Operation Christmas Child!

4. My daughter and I are really enjoying Kay Arthur's "Teach Me Your Ways - Pentateuch" bible study.

5. Holy Spirit has really been ministering my marriage. I am so grateful how in God's infinite mercy He addresses what's most important in our lives...HIM!

6. My BIL preached on Thursday's service. The message from the Lord is that He is seeking faithfulness. He wants His body to choose HIM above it all. If there are idols in our lives..we must destroy any and all altars and put HIM first!

7. I had such a fun time with my teen while we created polymer cupcakes. She handed them out to some of her little SIC as gifts. They really liked the cupcakes:)

8. Thankful that Holy Spirit guides us to all truth. If we seek we shall find!

9. I received in the mail a gift from afar. My heart's desire is that the sender may receive her recompense from above. To God be the glory!

(We were so excited to open up and see the goodies inside)

(WOW! We were in awe to see the bountiful blessings that were included!)

10. My husband spent time alone in prayer this weekend. He testified on how the Lord glorified himself and I was blessed through his ultimate obedience to God's promptings.

Seven Questions

2010-10-19T15:24:00.001-04:00

Amanda over at My Secret Garden invited me to answer 7 questions. I thought it would be a great way for my bloggy friends to get to know me. Read along and get to know me:

1. Where did you meet your husband?

I met my husband at church. My husband was an usher at our church and I noticed that he was so kind and helpful. I am grateful that we now get to serve the body of Christ together!

2. What is one of your most favourite movies?

I don't have a favorite movie but I enjoy the Kendrick Brother movies (Flywheel, Facing the Giants, & Fireproof)

3. If you could have any career you'd like, what would it be?
As a child I aspired to be an astronaut but I went to college for Criminal Justice...I wanted to become a lawyer.

4. What character in the Bible do you really relate too the most?

I would have to say David. When you read the book of Psalms you can read that when David committed a sin before God his heart was truly grieved. He wanted to be transparent before the Lord and also his ability to confess his sin and seek the Lord's restoration is of encouragement to me. I pray that my heart can always be that sensible.

5. Where did you get married?

Civil ceremony took place in a courthouse in Bronx, NY and later we got married at my church in Far Rockaway, Queens, NY.

6. What makes you laugh easily?

My sister Karen. Growing up together we laughed all the time and now even as adults and mothers we enjoy each other's company so very much. I was with her just yesterday and we laughed going from store to store while we ran some errands in our neighborhood.

7. If you could live in another country, which one would it be?

Assuming that my husband is in agreement:) I would have to say Ecuador. As a child I always wanted to be surrounded by my rather large family.

Thanks again, Amanda for inviting me to answer 7 questions.

Breaking Free: Failure to Believe God's Unfailing Love

2010-10-16T20:41:00.001-04:00

I started this study of Beth Moore's book, "Breaking Free" late January. I purposed to read one chapter every week and allowing Holy Spirit to dig deep into my heart and I asked Him to bring to the surface anything and everything that needs to be dealt with regarding the topic discussed for that week. For God's glory this week has not been any different. Holy Spirit was allowing me to see areas of my life in a different light and with different eyes. At times I can be quick to ask Holy Spirit to reveal my heart to me and when He does, it's not pretty. However, my confidence lies in that I can go to the presence of God and expose my heart (which He already knows) and I am confident in the fact that without a shadow of a doubt He will minister to me and I come out victorious each and every time.

This chapter has me dealing with unbelief. Beth goes on to describe that unbelief is a sickness that plagues the bride, the body of Christ. It is a plague debilitating many a believer. Believing His Word is essential for breaking free.

Psalm 146: 6b - 9

He remains faithful forever, executing justice for the exploited

and giving food for the hungry.

The Lord frees prisoners.

The Lord opens the eyes of the blind.

The Lord raises up those who are oppressed.

The Lord loves the righteous.

The Lord protects foreigners and

helps the fatherless and the widow

but He frustrates the ways of the wicked.

What a beautiful expression of just how much God's love can accomplish in the life of those who choose to receive it.

At times, circumstances and happenings have caused me to choose not to believe the Word that God has spoken over my life. And yes, I said choose because unbelief is a choice, it is a deliberate action.

I remember a time when my husband was out of work and I had lost my job suddenly. I remember thinking about bills that needed to get paid....mortgage, car insurance, etc. I had totally disregarded what God said about Him being my Jehovah Jireh...He alone is my provider. My former employer had given me severance pay which was exactly the amount of my salary for the length of time I was without employment. So basically, God gave me three weeks paid vacation! I worried for absolutely nothing. But the serious offense was doubting my Father's divine providence.

The Word is filled with examples of men and women that stepped out in supernatural faith.

This experience did increase my faith and served as an example that I should never doubt God's love for me. He has promised to never leave me and I have seen the manifestation of His promises fulfilled over and over again in my life.

God has proven His truthfulness and loyalty to His Word. However, when unbelief grips us we have to cast it out in the name of Jesus. We should declare what His Word says regarding the situation and speak life to it. The worst thing we could do at that point is doubt the Lord.

Beth shares the following points on pages 212-214:

1. God tells us He loves us. (Deut. 7:8)

2. God demonstrates his love for us. (John 3:16)

3. God thinks about us constantly. (John 17:24)

4. God testifies to others how He loves us. (John 17:23)

God made sure to inscribe his love for us in His Word so that we can always refer to it.

I want to always keep in my mind that belief is not a feeling. It's a choice!

Beloved, let's believe God's proclamation of love for us and walk in that blessing. We can always run to Him when our faith needs to be strengthened. And it's ok, He is there waiting for us and willingly will give us exactly what we need...less of us and more of HIM!

Counting My Blessings

2010-10-15T22:32:00.005-04:00

1. My husband and teen were able to go with our church street evangelizing. My daughter was able to preach to a few young women and share the gospel of Jesus Christ. My husband prayed for a young man who had reconciled his life to the Lord and I am praying that the Word that was deposited in him will not return void and will produce permanent fruit!

2. Afterwards, my daughter and husband enjoyed pizza together and enjoyed sharing their experiences of witnessing the Word.

3. A beloved brother in Christ and his wife paid a surprise visit to us on Sunday. We were able to have such a spirit lead conversation before service started. The real surprise is that he didn't have plans to preach that afternoon but God's thoughts are higher than ours...praise the LORD! The Lord used him in a mighty way for His glory!!

4. A SIC had a sonogram on Monday and she is having baby BOY...number #3!!!! Her precious daughter is the eldest and she as two little brothers and brother #3 is on the way!!!

5. My mom had us over for dinner and the food was great! She served a typical Ecuadorian dish which always reminds me of summers as a child.

6. In prayer this week with my husband Holy Spirit ministered to both our hearts and brought about much healing. I can say that praying with my husband is such a blessing. Through praying together the Lord reveals so much of our hearts to each other and brings about all that is necessary to draw us closer to each other and to God. Thank you, Lord for the power that breaks forth when I pray with my husband.

7. My Rite Aid trip this week was a blessing. Was able to get some goodies for just about everyone in the family! After coupons and store reward discounts my total out of pocket expense was..drum roll please!!!....$1.66 cents for everything you see pictured!!! And the blessing doesn't stop there, I will be receiving a rebate check in the amount of $6.00 and also $6.00 in Rite Aid rewards printed out to use on a future purchase!!!

(still didn't adjust time stamp on camera..lol)

8. My sister and I took a stroll on this chilly afternoon and it sure was a delight! The girls really enjoy titi time:)

9. My husband and I, took some time to receive counsel from our Co-Pastor and his wife. We talked, laughed and prayed. I am thankful for the leaders the Lord has lifted up at my church. What a blessing to see just how giving and loving our Co-pastor and his family are.

10. In my mailbox this week: These freebies!!

Samples of individual coffee sticks. Six came in the sample pack! The coffee is really very delicious.

The food magazine has some yummy recipes that I may try out this year for our holiday dinners:)

11. I also received the Parent's magazine which was an enormous blessing because in it there is an Amazon coupon for 20% off diapers which I can get a box of about 156 Pampers brand pampers for about .10 each which is a bargain!!! Thank you sweet Jesus!

12. I am certainly enjoying the cooler weather.

13. Blessed to meet through the blogosphere, woman who have a passion for living for Christ!

May God continue to bless each and everyone of them:)

14. Pastor has preached this week a message which touched the hearts of many of us and it was a confirmation to what many of us had in our hearts! God is so EXACT!!!

15. Through the Breaking Free study I have been able to put in practice what I have been reading and I thank the Lord for the grace to be able to endure:)

Surely the righteous will praise Your name;

The upright will live in your presence.

Psalm 140: 13

Breaking Free: The Fullness of Unfailing Love

2010-10-09T15:21:00.006-04:00

Satisfy us in the morning with your unfailing love,

that we may sing for joy and be glad all our days.

Psalm 90:14

Can you think of a time when you were suddenly awash with the magnitude of God's love for you personally?

As a mother I make sure I am re-in forcing to my daughters just how much they mean to me. I constantly tell them that I love them and more importantly I instill in them the love that God has for them. God does the same with us. His willingness to demonstrate His love for us should create in us a fullness in our hearts of His unfailing love....we should be satisfied with HIS love.

Did you know that there are people who have professed Jesus Christ as their Lord and Savior that are not living the abundant life that Jesus has so freely given us? I know this to be true because for quite some time after I came to Christ I still felt empty. I read the Holy Word of God and I knew that His Holy Spirit now abides in me, however there was a hinderance which was that I didn't allow God access to those empty places in my heart. Areas of my life that needed much healing were blocked off to the Lord. Unwillingness to confess hurts are a barrier for the fullness of God's love to manifest in lives of those who have confessed Christ. I new I desperately needed and wanted to be free. I wanted to live in the fullness of God's unfailing love. I confessed with my mouth all my hurts, my broken spirit, my sin and God HEALED my heart. I took hold of the Word that states that I am a new creation...old things have passed away, and all things are now new in HIM!!!

If were are living a life that is fully satisfied in the unfailing love of God that is ever present, we can rest assured that whatever the circumstances are....that will never alter His love for us. The fullness of His love is available to us. Beloved, let us draw from His precious living water and be satisfied.

Counting My Blessings

2010-10-08T17:12:00.006-04:00

1. My teen and I headed to Old Navy where we were able to get an adorable jacket for my baby at an amazing price. The original price was $26.50 it was on clearance for 50% off of an already reduced price of $13.99 and on top of that I used a coupon which brought the down the price of the coat to $5.23.

(oops did not adjust date settings on camera)

2. I am truly rejoicing that by the Lord's mercy He has opened my eyes to "frugal" shopping. I shop conscience of the price of items, current sales and any coupons that may available to get a considerable reduction in my out of pocket costs. Thank you sweet Jesus...because it is my desire to be a good steward of what the Lord has so graciously put in my care.

3. My husband had the day off this Monday. He was able to stay with the baby while I made a quick trip to the post office and mail off a check that was time sensitive and was glad to notice today that the company received the payment!

4. A brother in Christ (who I was so pleasantly surprised) brought the Word at Thursday night's service (Deut. 30: 11-14). The Lord favored him with such grace to teach the Word and convey the message the Lord had for us that evening. May our sacrifices Lord, be pleasing to Your sight!

5. Michelle will be finding out the sex of her baby this coming Monday. We are all super excited for her and meeting baby #4!!!!

6. The Lord has been ministering my heart regarding Proverbs 13:24 " The one who will not use the rod hates his son, but the one who loves him disciplines him diligently.". In my Spanish bible the word for discipline translated means corrects. I want to correct and have a heart to receive correction.

7. My mom is such a loving a giving woman. I enjoy sitting back and watching all that the Lord has done for her, in her and through her.

8. The youngest one of my mom's girls, my younger sis celebrated another earthday TODAY!!!

My mom found one of her kindergarten notebooks which contained her writings of the alphabet and her name. She was filled with such appreciation for my mom who held onto this notebook for over 25 yrs.

I pray that the Lord, who made her in secret and has all her days written in His book, who knows her and understands her heart may bless her with the petitions of her heart according to His perfect will. God continue to pour Your love out on her.

9. I have been asked to do a month long participation during church services which I was so happy to agree to. I will be bringing a Word that is read to the congregation form the book of Psalms. I pray that it be the Lord using me to bring the specific Word that He wants to give His chosen!

10. Glad to hear that my brother who is Ecuador is doing well and so is my grandmother who's health is great!

11. I purchased this frame about three years ago and knew exactly what picture I wanted it for (my wedding photo). Time came and went and the frame stood bare,

God had other plans for the frame and it included this painting. This painting is very dear to my heart. I have had it for over 20 years now.

This frame will now house the picture my father painted.

Search me, God, and know my heart;

test me and know my concerns.

See if there is any offensive way in me;

lead me in the everlasting way.

Psalm 139: 23-24

All Was Good

2010-10-05T15:03:00.004-04:00

God also said, "Look, I have given you every seed bearing plant on the surface of the entire earth, and every tree whose fruit contains seed.

This food will be for you,"

God saw all that He had made, and it was very good.

Genesis 1: 29, 31

My daughters and I headed to the farmer's market earlier and there was such beautiful fruits and veggies to choose from.

I know I wanted to get lettuce, but which one? The market had about 7 varieties to choose from. I choose the one that looked the prettiest to me;)

There were also these lovely hot peppers I couldn't pass up on.

Tonight I am serving salad with a lasagna I prepared last night and I saw these lovely veggies I will be adding:

Right as I was leaving I noticed pears! So these came along. I was thinking to make a pear tart.

We are truly thankful for all the delicious produce created by the hands of our marvelous GOD!

Counting My Blessings

2010-10-02T22:59:00.001-04:00

1. My teen and I made a quick run to BJ's for milk and some groceries my mom wanted and off to Target and got a great deal on socks:) about .48 cents a pair! My husband and baby stayed home and napped....awwwww;

2. My mom made a yummy pepper steak on Saturday and invited my sister and I over. We always have such a lovely time when we are all together. Me and Karen enjoyed some good ol' laughs;

3. I ordered new bibles for my teen and I which have arrived. We will be starting a new bible study and I am really excited about it. My desire is that we may both be edified in the truth of God's Word and that His love may continue to draw us nearer to HIM!

4. Went to Rite Aid and didn't expect to get the savings I did. Thank you Jesus for the nice surprise. I paid about $5.00 for all that is pictures below (which is alot for my out of pocket costs) and I received $20.00 in rewards to use on my next shopping trip! I stock up on toothpaste for our boxes which I will be doing a separate post soon!

5. Karen and I went to Target while my mom stayed with our girls and we were able to buy some great toys, etc. again....for our boxes!

6. Invited my mom, sis and her family to dinner Monday night...we had baked chicken, rice, beans, and sweet plantains.

7. My husband will be putting up some shelves in the bathroom which I can't wait to see how it turns out. He was able to get all the materials free! Thank you Jesus!

8. Ordered two free 8x10 collage prints....one for each of my girls. My teen picked a pretty pink border and am excited to see how they turn out.

9. I was featured at Land of the Misfit Toys which was so sweet of Michelle. I had a stash of ribbon which she actually inspired me to do something with them....I will be making some hair bows for my girls and some to give away....Thanks again for the inspiration!

10. Old Navy has a 50% of all clearance items and I was able to buy my baby these adorable shoes for $2.05 each!!! God is always on time, my husband and I were looking to buy her some new shoes and even though these are not her size I will be putting them away for her to wear probably much sooner than I expect!

11. My husband and I decided to put a plot of land that we own in Guatemala for sale. We are praying that the Lord provide the buyer as well as a fair price for it...in the name of Jesus!

12. Our Pastor's message on taming the tongue hit home. The Lord has been dealing with me and bringing conviction on the words that I declare. May words of life always flow my heart!

13. A young SIC visited from Florida. It was so nice to see her again and chat with her a while. I pray that she may remain connected to HIM to hear HIS direction for Her life!

Lord, you are constantly showering us with blessings. May we keep our eyes open enough to see you in it ALL. Thanks again for all the lovelies this week. May I cherish all that you have placed in my hands. May I give it my all with excellence for YOU!

Love is not a Fight...

2010-09-27T23:03:00.006-04:00

But it's something worth fighting for. These are the lyrics to a song that has ministered my heart in more ways than one.

This song was featured in the movie "Fireproof". I praise the Lord that my marriage has not endured the hardships depicted in the movie. It is not to say we haven't had our share of trying times and definitely not from any outside influences but rather our unwillingness to back down and surrender to God's Word concerning love.

Pride and past hurts had become the third persons in our marriage. They didn't allow us to see the blessing we have in each other. There is a line in the song that says, "If we try to leave may God send angels to guard the door" and I am so thankful that God did just that. He has always intervened. Through His amazing love, we were able to recognize that we were not only hurting each other but more importantly that we were grieving Holy Spirit with our actions and attitudes. This revelation gave us a new perspective on the sanctity of our marriage. We have learned to be proactive in seeking counseling and prayer for our marriage letting God know that we are willing to give our all for our marriage to be pure and holy in His sight.

His mercy has allowed us to overcome so many hurdles in our marriage and our marriage is definitely worth fighting for!

I invite you to take a few minutes and listen allowing Holy Spirit to minister your heart. Please know that there is hope for marriages to be restored in Jesus Christ. He alone can breathe life into a marriage that seems to be dying.

Only He can send those angels to guard the door!

Love is not a place

To come and go as we please

It's a house we enter in

Then commit to never leave

So lock the door behind you

Throw away the key

We'll work it out together

Let it bring us to our knees

Love is a shelter in a raging storm

Love is peace in the middle of a war

And if we try to leave, may God send angels to guard the door

No, love is not a fight but it's something worth fighting for

To some, love is a word

That they can fall into

But when they're falling out

Keeping that word is hard to do

Love will come to save us

If we only call

He will ask nothing from us

But demand we give our all

I will fight for you

Would you fight for me?

It's worth fighting for

Warren Barfield - Love is Not a Fight

If you have not seen the movie "Fireproof" I highly recommend you purchase a copy for yourself. It has been such a blessing to my marriage and of those around me who have seen the movie and testified on how this movie ministered to each of them. My sister even gifted this movie to a couple who does not serve the Lord and they enjoyed the movie and in the name of Jesus we have declared their lives, family and marriages for Jesus.

Out and About

2010-09-25T11:25:00.001-04:00

On Wednesday, my girls and I enjoyed a very warm day at the zoo. I didn't expect it to be in the 80's but nonetheless we had fun observing the splendor that is God's creation. Every time we go to the zoo I stand in awe of all the different creatures there. Each of them serve a purpose.

The same as us, we all serve a specific purpose within the body of Christ. It is important that we ask the Lord to reveal to us what is our purpose, what is our function so that the body of Christ can operate the way the Lord intended.

Enjoy the pictures of our trip.

(The bison were relaxing in the sun)

(My teen took this picture. Not sure what kind of flower it is but isn't is beautiful?)

(The seal swimming about)

(This is the baby out of the bunch.
She spent most of the time on the rocks observing)

(The seals were our favorite site to see. They sure did put on a show for us!)

(My daughter gazing at the beauty of the works of God's hands)

God saw all that He had made, and it was very good.

Genesis 1: 31a

Counting My Blessings

2010-09-25T01:15:00.003-04:00

1. Checked out easy hair bow tutorials at Land of the Misfit Toyz ...and was inspired to create these for my baby!

2. My husband built (2) bookcases out of this:

One for our h.s. area and the other is in my bedroom for some of my crafting goodies:)

3. Went to Michael's Craft store with Karen and happened to walk in on a Cricut demo and enjoyed making this:

(I am planning to put pictures of my girls here)

also purchased these goodies for a future project:

4. My mom invited us to dinner on Saturday and made a delicious shrimp ceviche. I am not really into seafood but my mom makes this particular dish so good I couldn't resist!

5. I received a free copy of "America: The Story of Us" in the mail. It is an awesome h.s. resource with hours of American history facts. My husband really enjoyed seeing the wealth of information.

6. My mother gave me some of our family albums she had in her home. They include baby pictures of my sisters and I, but the best pictures are pictures of my parents from about 35 years ago. I can't believe just how much I resemble my mom!

7. Our Co-Pastor and his family paid a visit to our home. We ate, we laughed, we prayed...it was a blessing!

8. My husband took a day off of work and SLEPT!

9. My girls and I headed out to the Bronx Zoo. The seals were my favorite part. My baby stood in awe of these magnificent creatures.

10. Found a great craft idea here and voila!

11. A BIC sent me an email that ministered my spirit. Thank you Lord for the brotherly love you deposit in us for one another. I am thankful that He obeyed the prompting of Holy Spirit.

12. My first attempt at a typical Ecuadorian dish named "llapingacho". My mom was invited and gave her approval at the dish:)

13. Service was beautiful last night. The Word ministered my heart. There are consequences to sin. But our God is a God of restoration and mercy. Have mercy on me, Lord!

I am certain that I will see the Lord's goodness

in the land of the living.

Wait for the Lord;

be courageous and let your heart be strong.

Wait for the Lord.

Psalm 27: 13-14

14. Received some awesome news last night which I will share shortly:)

15. My sister Karen sent me some funny text messages. She has such a humorous heart!

Breaking Free: The Freedom of Unfailing Love

2010-09-23T10:30:00.001-04:00

Others sat in darkness and gloom-

prisoners in cruel chains-

because the rebelled against God's command

and despised the counsel of the Most High.

He broke their spirits with hard labor;

they stumbled, and there was no one to help.

Then they cried out to the Lord in their trouble;

He saved them from their distress.

He brought them out of darkness and gloom

and broke their chains apart.

~ Psalm 107: 10-14

Can you see His unfailing love in the above verses?

There was a time in my walk with God that I took His discipline as His way of not giving my hurting heart another glance. I have since learned to see that His discipline is out of pure love.

Beth makes such a valid point that spoke to my heart. "His unfailing love also appears in His unwillingness to allow rebellion to go unnoticed and undisciplined.". Thank you Jesus that you have not allowed my rebellion to go unnoticed.

I am so grateful for the leaders in my church. In the past, I dreaded when an elder in the church would come up to me and tell me, "Sister, my spirit is telling me that there are things that are not right with you." God would give them specifics and I immediately would feel hurt that the Lord would out me out like that. Why wouldn't He tell me directly? Many times He did alert me to my behavior but I would choose to turn a deaf ear. Thank you Lord that You love me too much to allow things to remain the same.

Beth gives two points from the Psalm to encourage us toward our goal of truly understanding His unfailing love for us:

1. God's unfailing love extends to the most rebellious captives and most afflicted fools.

2. God strives with His captive children until they are free.

There is hope in our Lord.

Why do you think we have such a difficult time believing that God really loves us?

We tend to attempt to humanize God and His unconditional love for us. Without Christ we try to go above and beyond our means to evoke love and acceptance from others. Most of the time if not all of the time those actions go unnoticed so that we can realize that the void in us is one that only Jesus' love for us can fill. God's love cannot be compared to our human understanding of love. Our simple human mental capacity cannot fathom the extent of God's love for frail humanity. Even while we were sinners He gave His only Son to die for our sins. That is a love that we can only try to imitate.

Even when I have failed His unfailing love has NOT.

Beloved, If He has become God alone to you, you have a powerful story to tell. Start talking! (quote directly from book)

Lost and Found

2010-09-20T12:45:00.003-04:00

I shared here that last Thursday evening a tornado sped through parts of Queens and Brooklyn. Our church is located in Queens and from our home it is about a 40 minute drive with no traffic.

As we prepared to leave our home as usual on Thursday evening we had no idea that the heavy rain that zoomed by had actually been a tornado. As we crossed the Whitestone Bridge we immediately saw the traffic which had accumulated.

My husband and I decided that traffic was just to much and we decided to head home. We had to take the local route through Queens to get to the 59th Street bridge that would lead us into Manhattan and then head home to the Bronx.

While driving through Manhattan, I immediately thought of my father. He works the evening shift in Manhattan. Very excited, I suggest to my husband about stopping by and seeing my dad.

I have not seen my father in over ten years although, we do communicate by phone. I was filled with emotions at the prospect of seeing my dad. I called his place of employment twice and he was not available. I waited outside and noticed a man sweeping out front. I thought I'd ask him if he knew my dad. He said yes, then with my heart beating so rapidly I asked him if he could please ask my dad to step out for a moment.

I waited a few minutes and no sign of my father or the man I spoke to a few moments ago. Another minute or two passed and then.....

I noticed him. I would notice that walk in a crowd of people.

After all these years....I saw my dad.

It was him.

Before I knew it, I was embracing my father and sobbing.

My father's embrace was so familiar. So many lovely memories flooded my mind when I hugged my dad. Lovingly he told me, "Stop crying, it's ok."

I pulled away and I looked at his face. I wanted to capture his face and praying at the same time asking God not to let me forget how he looked at that very moment. After I let my dad go, I presented him to my teen daughter, she hugged him and wispered, "Grandpa". My dad held his hand out and met his son-in-law for the first time. He reached into my car and met his baby grand-daughter.

We were able to visit with him for a few short moments since he had to get back to work.

All the time I was trying to etch in my mind every contour and line on his face.

I didn't want him to leave.

I didn't want to leave.

I told my dad how much I missed him and how much I loved him.

As I said goodbye to my dad, I hugged him so tight. I looked at his familiar eyes and told him, " I love you daddy." He smiled at me. I remember telling the Lord that I was more than grateful but please don't let this be the last time. He said his goodbye to the girls and my husband and just like that.....he was gone again.

During my walk with the Lord, He did such a beautiful thing in my heart. Long ago I forgave my dad for all the moments that I had lived as a child. There was no hurt. There was no anger or bitterness. There was only love in my heart towards him. God had renewed love between a daughter and her father. I was so grateful for all that the Lord orchestrated for us that night.

But I have my memories. I remember what we spoke about. I remember his face.

I love my daddy:)

Counting My Blessings

2010-09-18T19:33:00.002-04:00

1. My teen along with some other younger B/SIC have started their first year of discipleship studies. My desire is that she may continue to grow in the fear of our Lord. May all that she will be learning bear permanent fruit in her life.

2. I am thankful that a SIC has recommitted her life to Jesus and has been attending service regularly,

3. This past weekend our church celebrated 13 years of service to the Lord! May God continue to use His house of worship as a sanctuary to the lost!

4. Several preachers were invited and God used them mightily to speak to our lives.

5. Some of my husband's family joined us in celebrating and my SIL's husband received Jesus Christ as His Lord and Savior. We were all rejoicing!!! What a victory!

6. My BIL's family also stopped by on the last night of the celebration and I pray that in the name of Jesus the Word will not return void for His glory!

7. My daughters and I enjoyed sleeping over my mother's house while my husband built and painted this:

8. Stopped by my husbands job to load up some materials for his new project and enjoyed having lunch together,

9. Rite Aid had some great deals and paid about .80 cents for all:

10. Headed back to Rite Aid and was able to get more toothbrushes for Operation Christmas Child:

11. I have enjoyed crafting with my teen this week. received some really great deals at the craft store. We started working with polymer clay and had a blast creating our "cupcakes". Will post pics of our recent crafts soon!

12. Thursday evening while getting ready to go to church, rain started pouring out of the sky. The rain came down with a fierceness that a thought crept into my mind about maybe not attending church. I immediately cast down that thought and figured it came from the enemy and went about my usual routine . While driving to church on the traffic report we heard that it was actually a tornado that touched down on the areas we would have to drive by in order to get to church. Traffic had accumulated to the point where highways were being closed down due to several accidents and trees now blocking the roads. It took us several hours to get home, but it all had a purpose! For God's glory...HE surprised with a gift I did not expect to receive. There were tears and laughs involved...stay tuned to find out:)

Lord, may you continue to manifest your glory for Your glory.

May those who do not believe, see and believe.

You are the one true living GOD. There is NONE other!

Breaking Free: Part V Unfailing Love

2010-09-14T11:37:00.002-04:00

Looking back to my past I noticed a pattern of behavior I was developing. I would begin something and not see it to the end. Allow me to elaborate and share some of my experiences.

I was first generation of my family born in this country and I was accepted into a well known private high school and was determined to excel. There was the hopes and dreams of my parents riding on my graduating and becoming a professional.

I took a trip to Ecuador that summer after completing my freshman year in H.S and after a devastating experience, it set me up for my future's outlook. After this moment in my life I saw things through a different perspective. Three years of high school remained and I ended up attending five schools and not graduating but instead I opted for a g.e.d (grade equivalency diploma). My mother was so disappointed, and so was I.

However, I saw a gleam of hope. I was accepted into a prestigious college in Manhattan and was determined to graduate. I had been so un-disciplined and battling with alcohol and marijuana that I soon realized I wasn't going to be up for the challenge. After almost two and a half years as a freshman I gave up. My daughter was about 2 at the time, and I decided to enter the workforce and leave my hopes and dreams of furthering my education and making my mom really proud of me to the side. I was different to her...she saw me with different eyes. I too, saw myself as different.

That is part of my testimony and what God used to draw me to HIM. Although to a few this might be just reading another book. To me, it means creating a pattern of permanent changes with the help of Holy Spirit.

This new section I am starting to read is titled,

"Unfailing Love"

I am more than overwhelmed at times when I think back to all that the Lord has allowed me to live and see. What gives me that feeling is that HE was there through it ALL. His unfailing love has accompanied me through so many dark moments in my life.

Beth points out the wedding at Cana of Galilee. The master of the banquet made a statement about Jesus that described Him so well, "Everyone brings out the choice wine first and then the cheaper wine after the guests have had too much to drink; but you saved the best till now." (John 2:10) Our Lord always seems to have something better waiting for us around the corner when we least expect it.

On page 191 Beth writes, " What do we need when our mountains shake, when our hills are removed? Babies die without it. Children must have it. Youth plead for it. Adults search for it. We will only find true freedom in the love that will not fail or go away."

My hearts screams out to be able to understand just that, God's perfect and unfailing love for those He so lovingly calls His children.

I pray that you may be edified in joining in on this journey of breaking free with me. I pray that you may be able to see His unfailing love for you.

God bless you!

Updates

2010-09-10T08:44:00.010-04:00

I have been "away" the past few weeks mainly because I have been organizing our homeschooling area, preparing our curriculum calendar and just getting started for the 2010/11 school year.

(Husband built this chalkboard for us. My teen picked out the paint and painted it herself)

(We liked the idea of Ikea's Trofast system but thought it to be way to expensive.

So, my husband built this one....This is our interpretation:)

I have put on pause my Breaking Free study. I am def. starting back officially next week. The book has been so motivational in identifying patterns in my life which do not allow me to grow spiritually. I began this book early this year and have been taking my time reading one chapter a week to be able to really dig deep and apply what I am learning. I have set a goal to finish it with the help of the Holy Spirit.

Amanda over at My Secret Garden wrote a timely post, "Testing or Chastening?" which ministered to my spirit greatly. The Lord has been speaking to me regarding many areas of my life that I needed to be away to hear His voice clearly. This ride has been a humbling experience for me and my heart's desire is to grow and learn from this episode in my walk in HIM and confident in the fact that He will work it out for my good and for His glory! I am glad to be back knowing that He who started a good work in me is faithful to fulfill all He has promised!

This month officially ends summer and fall will begin shortly. In turn I will be switching my blog design to correlate with the new beautiful colors that will surround me very soon. I truly enjoy this time of the year for all the different hues that the foliage will produce. I am very much an earth tone gal. My wardrobe clearly represents this statement:)

This weekend our church will be celebrating 13 years of service to the Lord. We are expecting God to do a mighty work in all the hearts who will be present especially all those who have been invited and are not serving the Lord as of yet, to heed to the prompting of the Holy Spirit. Several preachers have been invited and I trust that the Lord has deposited in them the exact Word from His heart to us..His chosen.

Pictures I wanted to share as to what we have been up to these past 3 weeks:

(Enjoyed picking grapes from a vine growing alongside our church)

(Enjoyed bbq with FIC)

(Celebrated a few birthdays/earthday's - niece turned 5, BIL turned well I won't mention that part..lol and a beautful young sister in Christ celebrated her 18th b-day)

I am thankful to have this outlet of communication and especially for all who set aside a moment to visit SBG....

May the Lord bless you and protect you;

The Lord make His face shine on you

and be gracious to you;

The Lord look with favor on you and give you peace.

Numbers 6:24-26

Breaking Free: God's Rule is Right

2010-08-23T06:42:00.001-04:00

But my salvation will last forever,

My righteousness will never fail.

Isaiah 51:6

Almighty God did not design us to be self-sufficient. He created us to require authority so that we may desire to live safely under His rule. Satan wants to deceive us by thinking that we are our own boss and that we can accomplish our goals in our own strengths.

Believing that God's rule is right requires faith and trust. Faith to know that He alone is God and that He has worked it all out for our good.

In the book of Job, chapter 38 and on the Lord speaks sternly to Job. The Lord goes on to pose Job a list of questions which are meant to give Job the understanding that God is omniscient, omnipotent, all powerful. God doesn't need our advice or our input on anything that has to do with us. He is more than capable to resolve it ALL on our behalf.

The ending of this book brings so much hope to my heart because Job sees his own humanity and how frail and momentary man is.

If you have questioned that the Lord's rule is right repent like Job in chapter 42:6 "Therefore I take back my words and repent in dust and ashes." It took much humility on Job's part to admit his own life is but a breath.

I am determined to break free from any thought that I have to figure anything out on my own.

I put my trust in the Lord.

He alone is worthy!

Counting My Blessings

2010-08-20T13:17:00.003-04:00

1. Sunday worship was just what I needed. During the praise I was calling out to the Lord asking Him to help me submit and understand that He is the Potter and I am the clay. After service was over my Pastor came out to the parking lot and spoke words to my spirit that I was asking the Lord to hear. God is always on time!!!

2. My Husband has started making an organizer for our babies toys. He was able to get the wood for FREE!!! We are excited about started some handmade crafts.

3. My teen had such a great time being dad's helper. It was great for me to see them at work and laughing and enjoying this time spent together learning!

4. Chatted with my older sis who lives in Ecuador and we had such a joyous time...reminiscing, laughing and yes..there was even a tear or two. Even got to chat with my niece who is...16!!!

5. This week I officially started giving my baby regular milk instead of formula. I thank the Lord because the transition was smooth:)

6. A SIC testified how she received an immediate answer to prayer. God, you are so merciful! Lord, please intervene!

7. I have been able to get rid of so much junk mail that has piled up. I am grateful for my mom lending me her shredder.

8. Went to Ikea and we were able to get some great items (table and chairs for my girls, a metal rod hanger thingie, plastic bins) really cheap!

9. 16 notebooks and about 1/2 dozen pencil and pens and 2 reams of copy paper practically free at CVS and Staples....woo hoo!!! The Lord definitely is providing items to donate for the shoeboxes!!! Post to follow shortly:)

10. Grateful that my mom's recovery (out-patient eye surgery) is going great.

11. Baby is in full walking mode. Family in Christ rejoiced at her walking about church on Thursday!!!

With Christ everything

Without Him....NOTHING!!

Breaking Free: God's Right to Rule

2010-08-17T08:29:00.005-04:00

I am God, and there is no other;

I am God, and there is none like me.

Isaiah 46:9

These past few chapters have me focusing on obedience.

When we receive Jesus Christ as our Lord and Savior His Holy Spirit comes to dwell in us and where the Spirit of the Lord is, there is freedom (2 Cor. 3:17). If we are not experiencing His freedom....are we being obedient....in everything?

The author states a very interesting question: "Have you ever noticed that you can experience freedom in one part of your life and remain in bondage in another?"

Sometimes we allow the Lord's freedom to manifest in our lives while simply holding on to other areas and not allowing HIM access.

The answer to true freedom is quite simple. The answer is withholding HIM absolutely nothing. To remain completely transparent and allowing HIM to refine us and to remove all impurities that serve as a stumbling block to receive and live in HIS absolute freedom.

This past Sunday the Lord reminded me of this chapter. I cried out to the Lord that we may always have a Potter/clay relationship. Christ obeyed the Potter. As a man, Christ obeyed His Father. Christ uttered let your will be done! Jesus was committed to God's right to rule and knew that His rule is right. I want to allow the Lord to be the Potter and submit to HIM as the clay. I want to obey His right to rule in my life.

God's rule is right!

Let Him rule....

Counting My Blessings

2010-08-13T06:59:00.007-04:00

I have been somewhat off in my posts being that this past week was full of birthdays and church events. But I do not want to forget to Count my Blessings!

1. This week has been amazing in that the Holy Spirit had us calling out for repentance and restoration in our Tuesday prayer service. I believe that the Lord heard our cry and has responded!

2. My baby had a slight fever. My husband and I woke up at around 3am layed hands and prayed that by Jesus' stripes she was healed and to no surprise a few moments later....no fever. Praise Jesus!

3. My cousins son who got into some trouble was given another opportunity this week. I hope that he can recognize God's hand in it all.

4. My sis came over for a visit with her girls. It is always so lovely to have them over and see her little one play and laugh.

5. My teen daughter is so giving. She is always willing to help even when I don't ask her for it. Thank you Lord because you've deposited in her a servant's heart. May she know that it is all for your glory!

6. My teen and I have started reading the Power of a Praying Teen together and I am thankful because Holy Spirit's precious love has overflowed in our conversations and I am grateful tat my daughter has been so open with me. It's only you, LORD!

7. My SIC Michelle blessed my Geni with some yummy treats!

8. My husband's boss gave such a thoughtful gift to our baby for her birthday:)

9. I was able to get my husband an amazing brown corduroy blazer on sale!

10. I am in awe in all that the Lord has been doing in my home and in my marriage the last few weeks. I am praying that it all works out for our good! God, your love is incredible!

Counting My Blessings

2010-08-09T07:48:00.010-04:00

1. My husband and daughter went out street evangelizing with our church. My daughter was able to preach to a muslim man and we declare him for Christ in Jesus' name!

2. Rite Aid deals were great this week! I purchased all of this for an oop cost of about $3.oo and will be getting back a $10.00 rebate check and a $10.00 gift card!!!!! (Thank you Lord for the revelation of using coupons!!!)

3. I celebrated my birthday this week! I am grateful for another year in the Lord. Another year where I have been able to see His hand at work in my life, my family, my church..in it ALL!

4. My sister who lives in Ecuador sent me a lovely birthday message! (So did 2 cousins of mine:)

5. What an awesome prayer service we had on Tuesday. Holy Spirit was ministering especially to the youth of our church and it was wonderful to see them pray and by faith laying on of the hands and praying for one another. Thank you Lord for all the beautiful and new things you are doing.

6. For the prep of my daughter's birthday...my husband saw that I had many things to do...he offered his help around the house...which was awesome...was able to get alot more done!

7. My baby celebrated her FIRST year. I amazed at how fast this past year has came and went. My husband took the day off from work. We had a marvelous time spending the whole day together. We had a lovely afternoon with my sis and her girls (her hubby was at work) and my mom came over and we cut a cake to celebrate. To be able to live all these precious moments in CHRIST is more than I can describe into words.

(I made her a dress and headband to go with her outfit.

My first attempt at sewing was successful for God's glory!!!)

8. After my baby's celebration off to church for an all night vigil. It was such a blessing. A local church was invited and their pastor brought the message and boy! was it on time! We fellowshipped and enjoyed the presence of the Lord and His bountiful blessings:)

9. Michelle announced at Friday night's vigil that she is expecting baby number 4!!!! We rejoice with her and her husband in the Lord adding another precious gift to their family and to the church of Christ!!!!!!!

10. A SIC was baptized on Sunday. What a blessing to be able to witness her dedication to the Lord. After service We brought cupcakes to share with the church for my baby's b-day!!!

Glory to the Lamb of God!

Celebrate

2010-08-02T23:37:00.003-04:00

As this day prepares to end, I cannot help but be thankful.

Thankful that today, is my 32nd birthday.

As I was walking to the supermarket with my 13yr. old, I was mentioning to her how I had such a lovely day with my girls. I went on to tell her that while I was in the world, I would have spent this day rather differently. How grateful am I that in Jesus all things are made new.

In that moment I recalled the countless times that I knew it was just the Lord's mercy and love for me that kept the devil's hand from taking my life.

I am grateful...

I had two different SIC declare this verse today which I'd like to share (they didn't know that the other had this verse for me):

For the Lord your God is living among you.

He is a mighty savior.
He will take delight in you with gladness.
With his love, He will calm all your fears.
He will rejoice over you with joyful songs.

Zephaniah 3:17 NLT

Thank you Lord,

Thank you because although you were not in my plans I was in yours,

Thank you because you loved me first,

Thank you because you kept me from harm,

Thank you because you have called me to be Yours,

Thank you for your precious son Jesus and Holy Spirit that lives in me,

Thank you

Counting My Blessings

2010-07-28T21:42:00.007-04:00

1. Spent the day shopping with my teen, sister and her tot. Went to Target and Old Navy. I was able to get some shirts for my baby at about $1.37 each

2. On Sunday it was my SIC Michelle's son birthday. He turned 4 and he looked adorable.

3. Noticed my baby has two molars peeking our of her gums. How cool is that!!!

4. Spent a lovely evening in prayer with my husband. Holy Spirit was ministering us on many different areas of our past. Thank you for this lovely experience and my prayer is that we may continue to seek HIM with the same hunger.

5. My niece turned 13 this week. I remember the day she was born. I was in the hospital while my sister was having her and I witnessed first hand so many milestones in her life. But I am most grateful that she is growing up in the fear of the Lord. Her heart's desire is to consecrate herself for HIS service. Thank you Lord, for my niece and I pray that she may always love you.

6. So glad to hear that my niece had a really fun birthday with her family then a lovely evening out to dinner at the Olive Garden.....yummy!

7. My baby has been taking a few steps on her own. What fun to see her branch out.

8. My mom had minor out-patient surgery on her eyes and I praise the Lord that she is well for God's glory!!!!!

9. Continue to enjoy free lunches at a nearby elementary school. Now if we can only get up early enough for the free breakfast;)

10. Was able to chat with my cousins back in Ecuador!

11. My daughter was so glad to sing in this week's children's service.

12. My teen made me chocolate chip pancakes. They were so tasty!

13. My sister's SIL visited church this past Sunday with her baby girl who will turn 8 months soon. She is so cute:)

Breaking Free: Broken Pottery

2010-07-28T17:09:00.001-04:00

This sin will become for you like a high wall, cracked and bulging, that collapses suddenly, in an instant. It will break in pieces like pottery.

Isaiah 30: 13-14

In the previous chapter, Beth illustrated several characteristics of a rebellious child of God.

In this chapter we will visit the 5th & 6th characteristics.

5. A rebellious child of God depends on deceit.

6. A rebellious child of God runs from the real answers.

These characteristics deal with running from the truth of God's Word and depending on satan's lies. Satan wants to distract the believer and use unhealthy attachments to things or people to lure us away from the truth of God's Word. The lies that Satan creates is to keep us in bondage. I have purposed in my heart to live the abundant life that Christ paid for me to have. Why settle for less dear brothers and sisters?

I have lived seasons of my life when I have fled from the only one who can heal me. Confronting the truth of who I really was..was simply to painful and I decided to deceive myself thinking that things were fine just the way they were. How wrong I was! When we make the decision to cut all chains that binds us to sin we experience a freedom that surpasses anything we could've ask or imagined.

Satan wants us to keep quiet and not confess our sins. I sincerely encourage you that if there is unconfessed sin in your life seek healing from the Lord. Please also prayerfully consider speaking to your church elders. There are areas in my past that needed to be confessed with the leaders of my church and ministration from Holy Spirit. You don't have to suffer in silence!

We can picture God being merciful and forgiving when we get into trouble accidentally, but we forget how compassionate God is when we are outright rebellious. His love extends to us even when we have rebelled against HIM.

Which characteristics of rebellion have been your tendencies?

Which do you find more difficult, returning to God or resting in HIM?

In my personal walk with the Lord, it has been more difficult for me to rest in HIM. My reasoning takes over and I tend to think of everything in a logical way. When situations arise my mind races and thinks of different ways to resolve. I have to confess my immediate thought is not always how will God work it out for my good. I do not want to insult God with my lack of faith because I know it is impossible to please HIM without it. Instead, I have to tell the Lord, I believe but help my unbelief.

May our merciful Lord continue to bless you on your breaking free journey!

Counting My Blessings

2010-07-21T16:06:00.011-04:00

1. Spent another lovely Saturday afternoon with my family at Camp Taconic. We had fun playing games, picnic lunch then a lovely bbq dinner.

2. My baby enjoyed getting her feet wet with daddy and big sis in the lake. The brothers enjoyed playing soccer and basketball:)

3. To end the lovely day we happened to walk-in to this awesome church service being held at the camp-site. The room was filled with the presence of Holy Spirit. He was ministering, liberating and speaking to HIS people.

4. My Grandmother who is almost 100 yrs old was baptized this past Sunday. My brother e-mailed me the video and I felt like I was there. Thank you Lord for the privilege to see her get baptized.

5. Received such a motivating "pep" talk from my Pastor. God, you are awesome at mending my wounds. You are my HEALER!

6. I had the opportunity to video chat with my grandmother, brother and his family and she is no longer using a cane and looks great!

7. Went to KMart and got some great deals on toys for my girls.

8. Amy, may the Lord continue to bless you. My desire is that He continues to reveal HIS will to your heart. Be blessed....

9. Got another great deal on diapers for my baby girl. I am thankful for the find especially since the stockpile was running low. Thanks for the coupon Karen:)

10. Enjoyed having my mom over for dinner a few times this week. I always enjoy having her over!

Breaking Free: Upside Down

2010-07-21T14:09:00.003-04:00

"Woe to the rebellious children!" This is the Lord's declaration. "They carry out a plan not Mine, They make an alliance, but against My will, piling sin on top of sin." Isaiah 30:1

Chapter 28 deals with: Rebelliousness.

Rebelliousness is the manifestation of a problem that goes much deeper than just choosing not to obey. It is a pattern of behavior that surfaces due to a root issue which must be yanked out. How? Through prayer and fasting the Lord reveals our condition and His Word and precious Holy Spirit heals.

I realized that my rebelliousness was a manifestation of childhood abuse. As an adult I never wanted to feel that helpless or vulnerable. I didn't want to feel that any other person had control over me. Situations that occurred to me as a child created a disastrous cocktail of emotions that over time were bound to explode. Explode I did....and others paid the consequence. As a result of childhood let downs rage and anger along with rebelliousness manifested in my life. I rebelled against God's authority and my husband's authority as the head of the house. Coming to Christ and receiving the Holy Spirit's ministration wasn't as easy as confessing because to me it meant reliving painful moments in my life. But I can testify that when I confessed I was healed. When I chose not to speak sin was eating away at me. The Lord opened my eyes to let me see the importance of confessing and allowing the Lord to heal. I didn't have to carry around the hurt and the pain that created this rebellious woman. I was set free and now am a new creature for the glory of God.

This chapter also has us reflecting the high price for rebellion. Yes, their are consequences to acts of disobedience. The last few weeks the Lord has been reminding me the high price that was paid for the forgiveness of my sins...for my redemption. He has been telling me in more ways than one that I am a child of God and that I must be a doer of the Word and not a hearer only, deceiving myself (James 1:22).

I am truly thankful because His mercy seat is there for me and you to run to.

This chapter illustrates several characteristics of a rebellious child of God:

1. A rebellious child of God does not act like a child of God.

2. A rebellious child of God isn't willing to listen to the Lord's instruction.

3. A rebellious child of God prefers pleasant illusions over truth.

4. A rebellious child of God relies on oppression.

Are you able to relate to any of the above? All of the above?

If any or all of the above describe you, do not feel that you are a hopeless case. There is nothing impossible with our GOD! He is an expert, as one preacher put it...in "recycling" human beings.

If we humble ourselves, pray and seek His face, and turn from our evil ways...He will hear from Heaven, forgive our sins and heal our shattered hearts.

Counting My Blessings

2010-07-16T07:52:00.001-04:00

1. Went off to upstate NY for the women's retreat...read more here !

The Lord prepared these goodies for us...HE is so detailed:

It was a beautiful experience to be able to pray with the Lord's soundtrack playing in the background...the lovely singing of birds and the rain falling to water the ground....

The Lord had the sun come forth and shine it's rays of warmth....

2. Did my CVS run and received free pens, scissors, and John Frieda hair care products for my teen!

3. Staples had some goodies (2 reems of paper, 2 packs of pencil and 10 folders) for my teen at an oop cost of .14 cents:)

4. My mom cooked chicken soup...my husband commented on how delicious it was and how it reminded him of his mom's soup....awww memories!

5. At Tuesday's service...we had a former member visit us with his new wife and sons. I pray that he may find his way back home, Lord. Like the father welcomed his prodigal son..I know you are waiting Lord!

6. Breaking Free study continues having me dig deeper than I may even want to go...but thank you Jesus because you work it all out for my good!

7. My beloved SIC celebrated another victorious year in HIM! Happy Earth Day Michelle !!!

8. My mom along with my sister and her girlies came over for a quick visit. I was finally able to give my niece the flip fliops I promised her. She is sooo adorable. Thank you Lord for my family!

9. My husband really helped me out around the house this week.

10. Depending on the weather...we may go back to Camp Taconic. My teen is so excited. The kids are praying for no rain!

Seek the Lord, all you humble of the land,

You who do what HE commands.

Seek righteousness, seek humility..

Zephaniah 2: 3a

Women's Retreat Part I: Let Your Cup Overflow

2010-07-14T15:49:00.014-04:00

I want to share the message that the Lord gave the women of my church during our women's retreat this past weekend.

Below is an image of oil being poured into a cup and the cup overflowing.
That was the theme of the retreat: LET YOUR CUP OVERFLOW!

The Lord gave the elder's of our church every last detail of what HE wanted to remind us of during this special time apart with HIM. One of the the specific words that the Lord gave was RE-EVALUATE! As children of God we must be evaluating and re-evaluating our walk with HIM. We must be checking our hearts and see if we have left any room for the enemy to introduce and plant any seeds of bitterness, anger, hurt, jealousy, etc.

When we come to Christ this is how we come to HIM.

Follow me on this and you will surely be blessed!

We are contaminted with all our past deeds, hurts, disappointments, etc.

The jug of water represents the Word of GOD.

~ Ephesians 5:26 "to make her holy, cleansing her by the washing with water through the WORD."

As we apply more of the WORD of God in our lives...not only reading it but by obeying and living it out..soon we are be cleansed!

"You are already clean because of the Word I have spoken to you." ~ John 15:3

With our constant searching for the LORD our cup will be overflowing...

However, there is still one outstanding issue that has not been dealt with.

You see those rocks at the bottom of the cup?

Those rocks represent roots of bitterness that corrupt and do not permit us to live that abundant life...

Did you notice that as were are seeking the Lord's divine intervention in removing these "rocks" out of our lives...there is now space in the cup?

We have to now fill ourselves with more of the Word of GOD and maintain our liberation!

If we are not careful and mindful of our daily walk with the LORD...look at what can happen.

"A little bit of yeast works through the whole batch of dough." ~ Galatians 5:9

If we are not constantly watching and praying this is where we can soon find ourselves....

"It is for freedom that Christ has set us free. Stand firm, then, and do not let yourselves be burdened again by a yoke of slavery." ~ Galatians 5:1

This verse clearly state that the possibility does exist to be enslaved again after being liberated.

I thank the Lord, for HIS Words of caution. His perfect love for us is so evident...He does not want us to remain the same. HIS Son Jesus Christ paid the price for our freedom.

Let's be RE-EVALUATING!

Are you removing those rocks?

"If I tell the righteous man that he will surely live, but then he trusts in his righteousness and does evil, none of the righteous things he has done will be remembered; he will die for the evil he has done." ~ Ezekial 33:13

"Then you will know the truth and the truth shall set you free." ~ John 8:32

"I tell you the truth, everyone who sin is a slave to sin" ~ John 8:34

Breaking Free: To Live Happily Ever After

2010-07-13T11:02:00.001-04:00

Most little girls dream of getting married, having children and living in the house with a white picket fence.
When I was younger I had similar dreams. I had dreams of becoming an astronaut and getting married in a huge wedding gown and having the perfectly decorated house and the perfect marriage.

However, as I got older and noticed that most of the people that I was surrounded by lived a life that was anything but I loosened my grasp of my dreams of bliss. The God that we have placed our faith in is a God who restores and can make something out of nothing. A breath from Him can give life to what we thought was dead.

In this chapter we are visiting our childhood dreams. If we submit our will to the authority and sovereignty of Christ..He will surpass our dreams. Beth Moore wrote, " He is obligated to keep us dissatisfied until we come to Him and His plan for complete satisfaction." I have seen these very words manifest themselves personally in my life when I have tried to substitute God's will with other distractions and give them the validity that they did not deserve.

This week's questions:

1. Why do some people refuse to give up on their dreams while others do?

Realizing their is hope in Christ is a motivator to put our heart's desire before the Lord, and sincerely hoping for HIS will to be done and not ours. Lack of faith that our GOD is the God of the impossible can deter us from the dreams that HE has placed in our hearts.

2. How has God brought happiness from pain in your life?

This week especially has me reflecting on my family. The family unity that I didn't experience as a child the Lord has exceeded my expectations..with a loving husband and children who are being trained up in the ways of the Lord and with having my mom and my sister and her family so close by and giving me a whole new family to enjoy..my brothers and sisters in Christ . The time that I wasn't able to spend with my mother because she was such a hard worker....my daughter's and I get to enjoy that precious time with her now. Pain experienced in my past, God intended it for good to accomplish what is now being done in my life (Gen 50:19).

3. Why do you suppose we discount the importance of happiness in spiritual circles?

It could be that we are so focused on being "super spirituals" and not fleshy that we consider happiness just a carnal emotion instead of seeing it as "God's momentary gift". We should not rely on those "gifts" to be the source of our happiness but be thankful and grateful when the Lord sends one of those moments our way.

Please feel free to comment on any or all of the three questions listed that Holy Spirit may be ministering you on.
God bless you...beloved of the LORD!

My lover spoke and said to me,
"Arise, my darling,
my beautiful one, and come with me,

See! The winter is past;
the rains are over and gone.

Songs of Solomon 2:10-11

Counting My Blessings

2010-07-12T09:17:00.009-04:00

1. Submitted my 4th and final quarterly report and Final Assessment for our first homeschooling year. I am so thankful to God that HE has allowed this experience. The time I have spent with my daughters is priceless :) Thank you JESUS!!!

2. An elementary school in our neighborhood is offering free breakfast and lunch and we are more than grateful for this and we meet there with my sis and her girls for even more fun!

3. After lunch we headed over to the library for some free a/c..:)...and some quiet time for bible reading,

4. Went to Old Navy and got some more $1.00 flip flops!!!

5. Did my shopping for the month at BJ's and my teen tagged along and was such a helper in packing the car,

6. My daughter turned 13 on Monday and I am amazed at all that the Lord has done in her life. HIS mercy and love has protected her and I am truly thankful. May HE continue to shine HIS face upon her and guide her through all of her days!

7. My baby turned 11 months this week....I am amazed at how these months flew by....

8. Went to my mom's house and she surprised us with fresh watermelon..a cool treat for such a hot day:)

9. Our families in Christ gave such thoughtful birthday gifts to my teen. She will enjoy all of them!

10. We spent most of my teen's birthday at my mom's house and had a pizza party. My mom is so loving and caring and I thank GOD for her!

11. My mom blessed us with some yellow plantains...she knows my husband really likes them!...Thanks mami:)

12. I am meditating on the past few weeks and thankful to the Lord for what HE has done...and what HE is doing in our lives...and expecting great things to come! We wait in you JESUS!!!

The olive must be crushed in order to get oil...

Chapter 26: To Be Fruitful

2010-07-05T11:10:00.003-04:00

This chapter Beth states that most people feel content if only..they were married, had the perfect job, had x amount of children, the perfect house of their dreams they would be "happy". They definitely have the wrong mind set since if they would be able to obtain these things sooner or later they would still feel discontentment. They long for something that no one or nothing materialistic that can possibly fill that empty void. They may not even know it but that void in their lives can only be fulfilled by Jesus occupying that special place that is reserved for HIM and only HIM!

I, too fell into this very trap. I thought once I had my own home, a certain income, etc. that I would be genuinely happy. However, I wasn't. I still longed for satisfaction that only came through receiving Jesus Christ as my Lord and Savior and having an intimate relationship with HIM.

This week we are asked:

How does fruitfulness look in your life? If you don't believe your life is fruitful, what do you think is causing it?

Fruitfulness in my life is my desire to continue. To press on ahead. Not to stay stuck where I am at in this particular moment in time but to know that in HIM there is so much more. Our GOD is infinite. There is hope in HIM.

HIS Word is such an inspiration to press on. If I remain in HIM and HIM in me then I will bear fruit and HIS Word states not only that but MUCH fruit!

Counting My Blessings

2010-07-02T15:31:00.003-04:00

1. CVS run this week was great. Flipped my ecb's and received some more items freeeeee!!!

2. Free OJ

3. Free shampoo

4. Free candles which completed my items to submit an SC Johnson rebate which were totally free and will be receiving $15.00 check soon.

5. My pastor paid an overdue visit. Thank you Lord because I know he truly cares!

6. Home School area is coming together...slowly but surely!

7. Curb alert....lovely little table for my printers

8. I found a $100.00 rebate check I had forgotten about...thank you Jesus!

9. Received a text from my cousin who experienced a great victory at a retreat she went to by faith!

10. This week has been a most humbling experience for me. I am in the process of healing and receiving the restoration the Lord has promised!

I'm waiting

I'm waiting on You, Lord

And I am hopeful

I'm waiting on You, Lord

Though it is painful

but patiently, I will wait

I will move ahead bold and confident

Taking every step in obedience

While I am waiting

I will serve You

While I am waiting

I will worship

While I am waiting

I will not faint

I'll be running the race

Even while I wait

I'm waiting on You, Lord

And I am peaceful

I'm waiting on You, Lord

Though it's not easy...No!!

But faithfully I will wait

I will move ahead bold and confident

Taking every step in obedience

While I am waiting

I will serve You

While I am waiting

I will worship

While I am waiting

I will not faint

I'll be running the race

Even while I wait

While I am Waiting

John Waller

Breaking Free: To Be Beautiful

2010-07-01T14:15:00.005-04:00

This chapter has us contemplating our image of beauty. Being in Christ, knowing that I do not have to conform to this vain image of what a woman should look like just reminds me that God created me in HIS image.

Since I was about 9 I have been wearing glasses. My parents did not make me feel like I was any less beautiful than my sisters who didn't wear them. I remember my mom allowing me to pick out my own frames and even lense color (one year I chose blue frames with light blue tinted lenses...:)

As soon as I turned fourteen I asked my mom to buy me contact lenses because I wanted to ditch my glasses. I lost weight and there I was...my view of beauty. The next year I started high school and I looked totally different than what many remembered.

My image of beauty was shaped and molded of images I noticed in the world. However, now that I have been exposed to the truth of true beauty through the Word of God I now understand that that is all fleeting. The beauty that is considered in the world is so momentary.

This weeks questions to ponder:

Do you feel beautiful? If so, what makes you feel beautiful? If not, what makes you feel un-beautiful?

I pray about this area especially since most of the time I feel beautiful when I have my contacts on and not wearing my glasses. However, when I am home I wear my glasses and my husband actually prefers when I do and his comments make me feel beautiful!

I continually present this area of my life to the Lord because I am sure that does not please HIM.

TRUE BEAUTY:

"Wives, in the same way be submissive to your husbands so that, if any of them do not believe the word, they may be won over without words by the behavior of their wives, when they see the purity and reverence of your lives. Your beauty should not come from outward adornment, such as braided hair and the wearing of gold jewelry and fine clothes. Instead, it should be that of your inner self, the unfading beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is of great worth in God's sight. For this is the way the holy women of the past who put their hope in God used to make themselves beautiful. They were submissive to their own husbands, like Sarah, who obeyed Abraham and called him her master. You are her daughters if you do what is right and do not give way to fear."
~ 1 Peter 3: 1-6

Help me Lord, to live up to your view of a truly beautiful woman. I want to be able to always reflect you. I am here, LORD!

Counting My Blessings

2010-06-25T07:40:00.003-04:00

1. My SIL was married on Saturday. Our desire for them is that their marriage have a solid foundation on the ROCK!

My husband and I

2. Honored the Father's of our church and our Heavenly Father the KING! My sisters and I put together a slideshow of pictures of them which everyone enjoyed.

3. We had some visitors at Sunday's service and one of the ladies gave her life to the Lord! May she walk in His victory knowing that He is a God who restores and heals.

4. This past week was jammed pack with things to do and I am thankful that the Lord gave me strength:)

5. My mom came over Monday morning and stood with my girls so I could go on a quick errand. I am so thankful that my girls have grandma in their lives.

6. My tween has helped me so much around the house and is extremely glad her summer va-ca is now official!

7. Had a lovely conversation with my husbands cousin and I pray that she may always feel welcomed and loved at DIOS FUERTE!

8. Spoke to my dad which is always a blessing to me. Lord, have mercy on him and extend his days so that he may come to know YOU and receive YOU.

9. A women's retreat was announced on Thursday and I am praying for the Lord to provide a way so all my sisters can go!!!

10. Thank you Lord for the divine health upon the lives on my children!

Breaking Free: To Be A Bride

2010-06-24T08:54:00.002-04:00

In My walk with the Lord, have I been getting ready for the wedding or for the Groom?

I am remembering a heart felt testimony a BIC gave at this past Sunday's service. He mentioned that He had the mindset that he felt he had to do things to please God and when he didn't...he felt as though he had failed as though God was not pleased with him. But then, he went along saying, that he knows that God loves him no matter what. I was moved by my brother's willingness to be open and willing to share how the Lord was ministering him.

Beth describes on page 147 that she relates the word bride with "innocence". There were times when I first came to Christ that I felt anything but innocent. However, as the years go by and I am knowing my GOD and with more conviction I am understanding who I am now in HIM. My day-to-day walk reflects my intimate relationship with Jesus. I know that there are things in me that need to be broken down and dealt with but I am confident that the Lord's love for me will give me the grace to endure till the very end.

I realize that nothing I can say or do will ever change who He is but what HE has done for me has already determined who I am...

I am HIS BRIDE!

Counting My Blessings

2010-06-21T08:08:00.003-04:00

1. Since my mom's return from her trip I am enjoying spending time with her. I am more than thankful for her.

2. Friday prayer service was such a blessing and the fellowship that followed was great. My SIC are too funny!!!

3. Bought some last minute items for my SIL's wedding and was able to use some high value coupons to get a great deal. Thank you Jesus!

4. My husband helped me in my organization venture. He sure is creative!

5. My husband's boss gave our daughter a convertible car seat...thank you Lord for Your grace over my husband's life:)

6. Went out with my girls and enjoyed a lovely walk in my neighborhood.

7. I am tremendously blessed to see how much my SIC Maria has helped my SIL organize herself for the wedding.

8. I finished decorating my SIL's candles for her wedding just in time. (will post pics)

9. Our Co-Pastor's wife celebrated another earthday and I pray that she may continue to use all that the Lord has deposited in her for HIS glory and honor!

10. I am in CHRIST and HE is in ME!

Breaking Free: Ashes Instead of Honor

2010-06-14T09:59:00.003-04:00

How did you first come to realize that you are a virgin daughter of the King?

Reading this chapter and the previous 22 has lead me to be completely transparent with myself and the Lord is allowing certain things to resurface. I am understanding that it is for my own benefit. I have spoken about them before but did not consider them under the microscope of this book.

I can say with so much conviction that the Lord has healed me from so many horrendous acts committed by me and to me that I am free in HIM to share them for HIS honor and glory.

In October of last year, through prayer and seeking God's direction, I visited Ecuador to see my grandmother whom I had not seen in about 15 years. One night before my trip, during prayer the Lord bought back to my memory the night I was raped by three young men when I was 15 while on a vacation in Ecuador.

Somehow through the years I had suppressed that night. When I came to Christ out of all the things I confessed and renounced that night did not surface. I had forgotten it. Well, the Lord knew it was time to deal with what happened to me over 15 years ago now. After, I confessed and forgave those three young men I felt an inner peace.

However, the enemy sure did not want me to feel like that after what I had remembered. He wanted me to feel guilt and shame. He tried to make me feel worthless and especially to hide this from my husband. To quiet the devil I did share what happened to me with my husband. I was not afraid or ashamed to reveal what happened to me.

I understand that I am a work in progress and I am ok with that. I know the good work that the Lord started in me will come to completion meeting Him face-to-face.

Remembering the night I confessed really did make me feel like the virgin daughter of my KING!

I AM HEALED

I HAVE FORGIVEN

I AM BREAKING FREE!!!!!!

Counting My Blessings

2010-06-11T12:23:00.005-04:00

1. Friday was our Co-Pastor's birthday and a BIC invited us out to have ice-cream. Pralines n Cream was delish! Very sweet surprise!

2. On Saturday the ladies of our church were invited to a women's conference at a local church. The title of the conference was "Taking the Initiative to be Blessed". The study centered around Deut. 6. That Word was right on time. The food was delicious but the time spent with my SIC and meeting other sister's of the faith was priceless!

3. Sunday My baby turned 10 months..she is almost 1!

4. My mom returned from her 6 wk vacation to Ecuador. I am glad to see her beautiful face once again!

5. She gave my family and I all these lovely goodies:)

6. My cousin sent me such a thoughtful gift. Lord, you sure did surprise me..you didn't forget my petition! May you multiply what she spent on my gift!

7. Spent Monday with my mom. We had breakfast and lunch together. We took a walk to the ave. and she helped me pick out a dress for my SIL's wedding which is just a few days away:)

8. CVS was great this week! I was able to catch the same deals for my mom and she was amazed at all the things she received free after ecb's and coupons!

9. Had my mother over for dinner and she really enjoyed the BBQ ribs! I am really enjoying our time together.

10. More great freebies in the mail this week!

11. My SIL asked me to help with some of the decorations for the wedding. Lord, give me creativity please!

12. Glad my mom is getting a new phone. She picked a hot pink phone which I think she will look just so adorable chatting on!

13. My husband and I had a lenghty convo on my BF assignment and the Lord was revealing my heart to my husband. I am thankful that my husband is slow to speak and quick to love me through it ALL!

14. My tween helped out with alot of chores that needed to be done around the house:)

15. My SIL blessed us with some yummy food for the car ride home after church (watermelon, chicken salad and home made cheese)

For I will pour water on the thirsty land,

and streams on the dry ground;

I will pour out my Spirit on your offspring,

and my blessing on your descendants.

Isaiah 44:3

Breaking Free: Hearts Broken By Betrayal

2010-06-09T20:46:00.002-04:00

What has to die in you, so that you may see Christ resurrected in you?

"He committed no sin, and no deceit was found in his mouth. When they hurled their insults at him, he did not retaliate; when he suffered, he made no threats. Instead, he entrusted himself to him who judges justly. He himself bore our sins in his body on the tree, so that we might die to sins and live for righteousness; by his wounds you have been healed. For you were like sheep going astray, but now you have returned to the Shepherd and Overseer of your souls." (1 Peter 2:22-25)

This picture portrayed a decision Jesus made to suffer in silence is humbling to say the very least. I can think back on moments where I felt insulted and when I suffered and did not respond the way the Master did. When did it become more about how I feel and how things are affecting me? When I take my eyes and fix them on anything that does not draw me closer to my Savior...the focus is no longer on HIM but on me.

It is extremely easy to say that everything in me needs to decrease so that He may increase in me. But that is how simple it truly IS! Before I was a slave to sin, but now in Christ, I have to offer myself as a slave to righteousness (Romans 6:15-23).

Sin or not to sin

Death or Life

Flesh or Spirit

Me or Jesus

No if's, and's, or but's..it has to be either about HIM or me.

Daily I have to make a choice.

I choose Jesus!

Counting My Blessings

2010-06-04T07:58:00.014-04:00

1. Made a hassle free return to Old Navy...always thankful for those types of returns:)

2. Shopping trip to BJ's was a hit with coupons and savings about $10.00!

3. On our way to BJ's stopped off at Michael's and enjoyed a craft project with my tween. We always have so much fun on our outings!

4. My daughter was privileged to be directing the children's service this past Sunday and I can say that there is hope and power in PRAYER and FASTING!

5. My husband enjoyed a lovely day off this Monday...although it did include some chores around the house and laundry but we found time to go to the park with my sis and her fam!

6. My mom is returning from her 6 week vacation this Sunday...Yipeeeeee!!!

7. Received 15 ecb's this week!

8. My daughter made her baby sister her first piggy bank..although it is not a piggy but you get the hint;)

9. Freebies this week included some high value coupons, a Dove deodorant and a qtip plastic carrying case <~I have been wanting one of those:)

10. Karen alerted me to the last pack of Huggies diapers at CVS which were on clearance $4.49 and I had a $3.00 off coupon which made for an awesome price for pampers!

11. I made a quick pit stop on Thursday to another CVS and there they were another 2 packs of diapers on clearance along with a tub of wipes for .37 cents!!!!

12. My husband has been able to direct the services for the last few weeks and I am thankful for all that the Lord has done, is doing and will continue to do in my husband's life.

13. Grateful for the love the Lord has for Dios Fuerte!

14. My husband shared some testimonies how the enemy tries the same ol' tricks at his job but thankful for the wisdom the Lord has deposited in my husband! YOU are his VICTORY!

15. I am excited about a women's conference that the sister's from my church and I will be attending....I am expecting!!!

16. H.S should be officially over next week! My tween will be glad to hear that:)

17. H.S year 2009-2010 is drawing to a close and my daughter is not the only one who has been learning this year....The Lord has dealt with me on so many different levels. I am thankful that I am learning as well;)

18. Enjoyed a walk with my girls to make a run to the ave...my girls...I really like how that sounds!

19. The Lord has been ministering me on my prayer life and He is always on time!

20. Breaking Free study is going on 22 weeks strong and I am enjoying every week of it...especially hearing and sharing with my husband!

21. Lord, thank you for this past week...thank you because I have been able to see YOU in all of it!

Breaking Free: Hearts Broken By Betrayal

2010-06-01T12:45:00.001-04:00

If you had been in Jesus' place (not if you had been Jesus), how would you have dealt with Judas?

In the world I certainly dealt with my share of betrayal by people whom I had let so close to me that I thought of them more than my own family. I remember one particular incident in which I knew the person betrayed me but she didn't know I knew about it. I didn't allow her to see my hurt as I was trying to guard my "rep". I didn't want anyone including her to think that I felt so hurt and betrayed. I valued our friendship and I was shocked to say the least to realize that she didn't value it as I thought she did.

How would I have dealt with Judas' betrayal?

I would like to think I would've prayed first to receive direction from God on how to deal with Judas. There have been times where I reacted to hurt from my emotions. I would not allow God to deal with the way I was feeling first and instead would lash out.

When we consult the Lord in everything we are sure to see His glory manifested.

Counting My Blessings

2010-05-28T07:31:00.002-04:00

1. My daughter and I ventured out early Saturday morning to Old Navy for the flip flop sale. We had so much fun :)

2. CVS and Walgreens had great deals this week on men's body wash,

3. Bumped into a neighbor and she blessed my family with some lovely books. One of them is about Psalm 91..it has powerful testimonies of God's amazing grace! Looking forward to finish reading it.

4. My mom called and I was so encouraged by her testimony of what the Lord is doing in Ecuador! May her eyes be always fixed on You, LORD!

5. Made major cleaning moves this week..it was only the Lord! Thank you for the wisdom and determination, only in You Jesus!!!

6. My baby is getting better at walking around her playpen...and she is CRAWLING...forwards!!!!!! WOOOOOO HOOOOO:)

7. My tween was supernaturally strengthened by the Lord this week...Thank you for putting the desire in her heart and sustaining her, LORD.

8. My husband received such a lovely compliment and it is definitely a witness of God's transforming power. Thank you Jesus.

9. Great freebies in the mail this week!!!

10. Michelle and John blessed us with more cash!

11. My tween received her summer edition of God's World news.

12. My SIL gave us some home made cheese...we ate them with warm tortillas last night and it was goooood! My BIL is blessed with a wife that can cook great:)

13. Last night's preaching reminded me that despite my flaws, His grace is sufficient!

Blessed is the man who perseveres under trial,

because when he has stood the test,

he will receive the crown of life that God

has promised to those who love HIM!

James 1:12

Breaking Free: Hearts Mended By Truth

2010-05-22T17:55:00.007-04:00

This week's assignment is to pray. Forgive anyone who has hurt us or abused us but also to seek forgiveness. I believe that the Lord will show us if there is anything there where we have caused our little ones to sin. Then I believe, He will guide us what to do with that information. Some of us will pray and rebuke it. Some of us will talk to our children regarding it. Some of us will write a letter. Whatever the Lord directs, let's just do it.

As I reflected on being a parent, I reflected on the lives my husband and I have been entrusted with by the Lord, brings a deep sense of responsibility. We are their first witness of Jesus Christ. I have the choice to either rear them in the fear of the Lord or do it my own way. I have seen first hand the impact of children not being raised in a God fearing home and definitely have chosen that will not be the fate of my little ones.

I think back on my own childhood, as these last few chapters have us doing, I understand that there is a fine line between chastisement and abuse. There is certainly something to be said of learning from the errors of others. I have learned much from choosing not to go the same parental paths as I have witnessed from others first hand. A very common saying within our culture is, "That's how my mother did it" or "That is how I was taught". I want to be taught by the Lord and His Word on how to be a parent. How to be the mother the Lord created me to be for my children.

I know that the Lord has deposited in me, all the necessary elements that make a great and successful parent. He has equipped me with a God fearing husband and father to my children and more importantly His Word and Holy Spirit to be able to instruct my children from.

The Lord created my children with a specific purpose and a plan that must come to fruition that we must prepare them for.

I know that there is work to be done in my role as a parent, but I have the best example, My father GOD to be able to learn from.

If I remember correctly I once heard Joyce Meyer say, "I may not be where I should be but thank God I am not where I was!"

Counting My Blessings

2010-05-21T08:33:00.002-04:00

1. Heard our Pastor preach at a local church. Grateful for the Word the Lord deposited in his spirit to edify His people. They also served coffee and great tamales. I want to learn how to make those.

2. Saturday was a little bit of rest, work and a visit by Karen and my niece.

3. A SIC presented her baby girl to the Lord this Sunday. It was a blessing to see her family once again.

4. We enjoyed a lovely car ride back home from church Sunday evening. Delight in the Lord...

5. Mondays are different with my mom still in Ecuador. Glad she is coming back soon!

6. Received a $5.00 gift card from Target and spent about $.80 each for 5 boxes of Kashi cereal.

7. My baby is pulling herself up in her playpen...she looks so adorable doing it!

8. My husband has been an immense help around the house this week...thanks lovey!

9. Pastor blessed us with some mangos....even though my baby made a mess she managed to get some in her mouth and liked it:)

10. Bro. Alexis preached/gave an exhortation to the church this Thursday...I want to seek you more Lord...help me to be a good steward of my time!

Breaking Free: Hearts Broken in Childhood

2010-05-17T08:35:00.013-04:00

This Chapter we are asked to recount episodes of our childhood and realize that although it may be painful to recount certain moments or painful experiences, God wants to heal. He is our ultimate Healer and wants us to be free from our hurtful past.

Wow, my childhood. Where should I start. There were times when as a family we shared some lovely and fun times. My parents taking my sisters and I to visit the Statue of Liberty, Bear Mountain, I even have pictures of us at Coney Island having fun on the various rides at the park. I remember my dad taking me to Riverside Park and teaching me how to ride a bike, etc.

But, for many years, the pain and hurt I experienced clouded those memories of the laughs and giggles of those days which I longed for but that would never return.

God had a plan that I was not aware of. He had a much bigger plan...a plan of salvation for my family that at the end of all the hurt would manifest. I am thankful because He was and still is that beacon of hope in the midst of despair.

I would not be aware of that hope until many years later.

This weeks h.w had me taking a long look back at my childhood with the following questions:

Think about you own childhood. Can you identify an experience that would be characteristic of God at work?

As I recall specific experiences of my childhood I can see God's mercy and His love in each situation. Despite the pain of abuse, I noticed I didn't loose the "little girl" quality. I still enjoyed playing with my dolls, having fun playing all sorts of games with my sisters. I would always kiss and hug my mom and tell her that I loved her. I enjoyed many Saturday afternoon's hearing my dad playing his guitar and singing along. That is how I prefer to remember those days.

Can you identify a handiwork of Satan?

I sure can. I can now identify his schemes of inflicting pain. His deceitfulness and desire to steal the joy and innocence of childhood that I would only be able to experience once in my lifetime.

Like Beth mentions in her book, I truly want the Healer to be glorified not the hurt. However, I do remember confessing a certain sin to a church elder and the elder confessed that they had experienced some thing quite similar. I was not glad that this person experienced what they did but I did find comfort in knowing that there was someone else who could relate exactly to the same shame and hurt.

I remember a time which the pain and abuse was to much for my little heart and body to bear that when I was about 10 yrs old was the first of a few attempts to commit suicide. At that tender age I thought there was no hope for situations getting better. I thought death would be the end all to end it all. How deceived I was. Satan whispered in my young ears words of hopelessness and self-hatred.

But God didn't allow for my limp little body to go without air for much longer. The only One who can breathe the breath of life in someone...breathed it into my little body and I recovered strength and life.

How has God used each of those experiences for your good today?

I am able to thank God for it all. I am able to see God in it all. I can see God's purpose for my life and that of my family. For God's glory and honor...I am saved and so is my family.

I do not harbor resentment in my heart for those who inflicted pain. I am thankful that through the blood of Jesus I have access to the very throne of God and I am able to pray and intercede for them.

I live thankful and learn from those experiences especially about how to love my own children and my husband.

I know that in HIM there is hope!!!!!

Thank you Lord because it could've been me... For awhile it was... But You are hear now.... Thank you Jesus!

Oh that we may know the Lord! Let us press on to know Him!

Then He will respond to us as surely as the arrival of dawn...

Hosea 6:3 NLT

Counting My Blessings

2010-05-14T09:13:00.001-04:00

1. Enjoyed prayer time with a beloved FIC. The fruit punch was very so very good:)

2. Did my food shopping for the month..the majority at least. My tween accompanied me and we always have the greatest convo's in the car!

3. Our Pastor blessed us with a computer desk and we finally set it up It looks great!

4. We went out Saturday and enjoyed the windy afternoon:)

5. Enjoyed a lovely Sunday service honoring our Lord Jesus Christ and also the mothers of our church. Thank you Lord for depositing in us everything necessary to realize the Proverbs 31 in us.

6. Math curriculum books arrived this week. Lord, you are in control!

7. I am thankful for the tender care my tween afforded me this week especially on Wednesday. Thank you Lord because she is always so willing to serve me and in that she knows she is serving YOU!

8. My husband surprised me with my slippers..this time they were the right size!

9. A younger SIC turned 13 this week and my desire is for her to continue to consecrate herself for His glory and honor!

10. Was able to speak with my mom a few times this week and I am glad that she is at peace.

11. Saw my niece bent down in prayer on Thursday night and I thanked the Lord that they are being raised in a God fearing home.

The eyes of the Lord watch over those who do right,

and His ears are open to their prayers.

1 Peter 3:12, (NLT)

Outlook..

2010-05-13T15:09:00.003-04:00

Tuesday night while driving home from church my husband is saying some words and asking me if he was pronouncing them correctly. You see, my husband's second language is English.

He shared with me that at his job his supervisor would correct his English and try to demean him in the process. My husband rejoiced as he was telling me this. Immediately he told me, "God is so good..because while he thinks he is making me feel bad...God is using him so I can learn how to better pronounce words."

This made me think about my outlook on receiving correction. Am I always this open and thankful?

I gave a quick glance to my husband and thanked the Lord because I know the Lord is using him to mold me and to learn from.

All for your glory and honor Lord!

And my God will meet all your needs
according to his glorious riches in Christ Jesus.
Philippians 4:19

Breaking Free: Straight to the Heart

2010-05-12T09:55:00.001-04:00

As we delve deeper into the study, I see God digging deeper and deeper. He wants us to go to places in our hearts that we may not have visited for quite some time.

For me, I had the mentality of, "I renounced it, prayed for it and now I am free!" While that is certainly true, did I confess everything completely. I mean did I go through every little detail..did I go through all the files? I thought I did, turns out I didn't.

This week the Lord gave me double for my trouble as my beautiful sister Maria puts it. He ministered me on several things this week that really had me searching, asking, praying and confessing.

This week's question:

"Currently, how are you preventing Christ from binding and healing your hurting/broken heart?

The Holy Spirit reminded me of this verse, "And Jesus said unto him, No man, having put his hand to the plough, and looking back, is fit for the kingdom of God." (Luke 9:62)

I was convicted in that I realized I had not yet surrendered my thoughts on my past to God.

I was noticing that I would "hang out" in my mind. In my thoughts I would travel back in time and linger about longer than I should. I would think about certain people, places or things and either laugh to myself or pondered more about them. Why would I do that? It had me thinking. (Pun intended)

Why didn't I take my thoughts captive to the obedience of Christ? I should have but I didn't.

This week it was the Lord asking me to revisit certain painful times in my life. But I already did..we went through this already I thought. The Lord asked me to revisit because there were thoughts embedded in my mind/heart that needed to be healed.

Not sure if I am conveying this clearly to you but that is how the Lord said it to me.

The mind is spiritual territory. "For who among men knows the thoughts of a man except the man's spirit within him?" (1 Cor 2:11) It is a battle ground that must surrendered completely to the will of the Father. The Father's will is for us to have the mind of Christ!

I have since renounced those thoughts which bring no honor or glory to the name of God. I have asked the Lord to forgive me and heal my mind and heart.

Jesus replied: "Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind. This is the first great commandment."
(Matthew 22:37)

Counting My Blessings

2010-05-07T07:37:00.003-04:00

1. Had an awesome night of prayer and fellowship with my FIC
2. Said my farewells to mom as she headed out to Ecuador for 5 weeks. I am blessed to know that her desire is to preach the Word while she is there and win souls for the expansion of the Kingdom of Jesus Christ!!!
3. Was able to speak to many family members out in Ecuador this week.
4. Was blessed with a platter of free brownies from Boston market. They were so tasty:)
5. A neighbor of my mom blessed my daughter with such a thoughtful gift. Only you Lord!
6. Karen helped me get organized. I am determined to get through the clutter in the name of Jesus!
7. My tween is determined to get rid of her own clutter. I thank God my husband doesn't have any!
8. My baby girl is 9 months this week and I am amazed at how fast time goes. Soon I will be planning her first birthday. Any ideas on themes?
9. My husband is so thoughtful..he bought me a pair of slippers and they were 2 sizes to small:)..it's the thought that counts right?
10. My daughter received her test scores back and she did excellent:) Thank you Jesus!
11. Had a lovely conversation with a younger SIC and I pray Lord that it may be you guiding her in every decision.
12. My SIC blessed me with a coupon booklet which included coupons for free items! Thanks Maria!!!!

If any of you lacks wisdom, He should ask God,
Who gives generously to all without finding fault,
and it will be given to him.

James 1:5 NIV

Breaking Free: Ancient of Days

2010-05-03T09:05:00.006-04:00

# 1 How does knowing that God is the Ancient of Days encourage you? Provide 3 Scriptures that provide this reassurance.

Reading this chapter served as a reminder that God has been right by my side through it all. All the joyous and beautiful times in my life as well as the times I cried myself to sleep at night. I rest assured knowing that it was His loving hand that caught each one of my tears and brought comfort to my troubled heart.

I can rest knowing that the Ancient of Days has and will always be there.

I was not able to sum it up in three verses but rather in the 24 verses that make up Psalm 139:

O LORD, you have searched me
and you know me.
You know when I sit and when I rise;
you perceive my thoughts from afar.

You discern my going out and my lying down;
you are familiar with all my ways.

Before a word is on my tongue
you know it completely, O LORD.

You hem me in—behind and before;
you have laid your hand upon me.

Such knowledge is too wonderful for me,
too lofty for me to attain.

Where can I go from your Spirit?
Where can I flee from your presence?

If I go up to the heavens, you are there;
if I make my bed in the depths, you are there.

If I rise on the wings of the dawn,
if I settle on the far side of the sea,

even there your hand will guide me,
your right hand will hold me fast.

If I say, "Surely the darkness will hide me
and the light become night around me,"

even the darkness will not be dark to you;
the night will shine like the day,
for darkness is as light to you.

For you created my inmost being;
you knit me together in my mother's womb.

I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
your works are wonderful,
I know that full well.

My frame was not hidden from you
when I was made in the secret place.
When I was woven together in the depths of the earth,

your eyes saw my unformed body.
All the days ordained for me
were written in your book
before one of them came to be.

How precious to me are your thoughts, O God!
How vast is the sum of them!

Were I to count them,
they would outnumber the grains of sand.
When I awake,
I am still with you.

If only you would slay the wicked, O God!
Away from me, you bloodthirsty men!

They speak of you with evil intent;
your adversaries misuse your name.

Do I not hate those who hate you, O LORD,
and abhor those who rise up against you?

I have nothing but hatred for them;
I count them my enemies.

Search me, O God, and know my heart;
test me and know my anxious thoughts.

See if there is any offensive way in me,
and lead me in the way everlasting.

#2 If there was 1 thing (besides the salvation found in Jesus) that you could instill in your future generations what would it be?

"For God did not give us a spirit of timidity, but a spirit of power, of love and of self-discipline." (2 Timothy 1:7 NIV)

This verse encompasses my desire for those who will come after me.

During my teenage season of life "disciplined" was certainly not a word anyone could use to describe me. I lacked discipline in just about every area of my life. Well, to do positive things at least because I had sinning down pact. In my heart there was the desire to accomplish many things. However, many if not all became a distant memory because I lacked the self-discipline to accomplish goals I had set up for my self.

I can remember times I lost my peace or did not give a good witness of Jesus when not walking according to the Spirit and letting my flesh take over a situation. By not exercising self-control I certainly do not reflect Jesus to my children or husband. I want those that follow to be disciplined in their relationship with the Lord. To be disciplined in loving and obeying God which ultimately reflects in their obedience to His Word.

In my walk with the Lord I have to constantly remind myself about being self-disciplined in certain areas of my life but I consider them conquered in the name of Jesus. I am breaking free and operate under the spirit of self-discipline.

Counting My Blessings

2010-04-30T00:51:00.011-04:00

1. Karen stopped by for a quick visit with her girls.

2. All Day Saturday was spent home with the family enjoying a quiet and relaxing day!

3. A young sister in Christ went up for prayer on Sunday and Lord I am trusting that she is healed and totally free in YOU!

4. My mom surprised us with a visit early Monday morning and brought over some goodies:)

5. I spent most of Monday with my mom helping her get ready for her trip. I am going to miss her so much!

6. Went to Target earlier in the week and found some great items on clearance all for $1.11 oop!

7. Rite Aid trip was unexpected this week but with coupons in hand made a good buy!

8. Received some great coupons from Pampers this week along with these freebies in the mail this week!

9. Enjoyed seeing my mom doing her CVS transaction with coupons in hand! She is so cute:)

10. My husband found a MetroCard totalling $11.00! Lord, you are always on time:)

11. Went with my mom, Karen and her fam along with my tween for some ice-cream..pralines and cream...yummy...yummy!!

12. Michelle and John blessed us with lots of coupons! Thanks so much:)

13. My tween has been an immense help around the house without me even having to ask her!

14. My SIL shared a blessing with us this week:)

15. Narrowing down our H.S. curriculum for the fall!

16. Thank you Lord because my Pastor is strengthened in YOU!

17. Surprised my husband at work and went out for lunch.

18. To my surprised he showed me shelves he made for our bathroom.

19. He also handmade a frame for my daughter's artwork. Thanks love!

20. Lord, I pray that you continue to bless my husband with creativity for Your glory and for Your honor!

Jesus looked at them at said,
"With man this is impossible, but with God all things are possible."
Matthew 19:26 NIV

Breaking Free: Surveying the Ancient Ruins

2010-04-25T23:36:00.006-04:00

Read Proverbs 31:10-31. I suggest reading it in as many different versions as you can. And choose one skill/area/verse you want to focus on to rebuild the ancient ruins.

I ask myself, "Does she do all of this in one day?", "Is this what her days consist of?" She is a busy woman then. It is evident that her desire is to provide for her family. To make sure that all their daily needs are met. She is anything but idle (V.27) a woman who definitely makes the most of her time. An attribute worthy of imitation.

Moving along, the verse that stood out to me:

"Her husband can trust her, and she will greatly enrich his life. She brings him good, not harm, all the days of her life." (Prov 31: 11-12 NLT)

I strive to be the helpmate of my husband that the Lord created me to be. I want the Lord to continue to cultivate the confidence that my husband can feel free to speak to me about anything. In the beginning of our marriage my husband would confess to me certain things and I would condemn him with the Word instead of encouraging him with the Word. I have since learned that I am here to always listen but not always speak.

My sister once told me that she wants to be her husband's biggest cheerleader. And I want to be that to my husband as well. I want to be their to encourage and uplift him. I want to edify and build my home..the home and family the Lord has blessed me with.

I understand that our marriage must reflect the love the Lord has for the church.

Are we there yet?
We are striving daily.
Are we on our way?
We sure ARE!

In the name of JESUS!!!

It Could've Been Me...

2010-04-24T12:14:00.003-04:00

This morning I woke up meditating on God's mercy over my life.
These few lines of a praise song came to mind and truly spoke to my heart on how the Lord is so faithful and merciful:

It could've been me
Outdoors with no food and no clothes
Left alone without a friend
Or just another number with a tragic end
But You didn't see fit to let none of these things be
Everyday by Your power You just keep on..You just keep on keeping me
And I wanna say thank You Lord for all You've done for me!
(-Song by Mary Mary - "Thank You")

Truly Lord I am thankful!

Counting My Blessings

2010-04-23T08:31:00.000-04:00

1. Decided to go to Old Navy and see if I would make it to get the free reusable bag with 50% off my purchase. When I got there there was already a long line formed. However, I did get my bag and my discount!

2. Saturday evening visited my mom and had dinner with her, Karen and all the girls.

3. Our Co-Pastor preached such an anointed message on Sunday. I want to be healed LORD!

4. Shopping with Koupon Karen is certainly not dull!

5. My mom stood with the girls Monday afternoon and they had fun with grandma!

6. Wednesday did my Wag's run and scored some Pantene items with coupons and RR $1.27 oop!!!

7. After leaving Wags we bumped into Sidewalk Sunday School and received a freebie.

8. Had an edifying convo with my husband in which Holy Spirit brought conviction and we are healed in HIS name!!!!

9. I am so thankful that the Lord deals in what may seem as the littlest things in my life...I am humbled Lord by your attention to detail.

10. Received some freebies in the mail including a sample of the new Dove men's body wash. My husband will be glad when I tell him about that one:)

11. My daughter received her Elsie Dinsmore series set of books and she is so thankful. I was waiting to get a good deal on the books and I did and they actually arrived a day early for God's glory!

12. My mom blessed me with a pair of shoes and my daughter with a set of scarves. Mami always has the goodies;)

13. Holy Spirit ministered an area in my tween's life and she confessed, was prayed over and is healed in the name of Jesus!

14. My baby girl is so unique! She is a character all her own!

15. The Lord is allowing us to go back in order to move ahead in the Breaking Free study...thank you Lord..it's all in the details!

Your unfailing love is better to me than life itself;
How I praise You!
I will honor you as long as I live,
Lifting my hands to you in prayer.
Psalm 63:3-4

Breaking Free: That Ancient Serpant

2010-04-18T22:59:00.005-04:00

What have you seen in yourself that you disliked in a parent or grandparent?

As I meditated on the question I thought about past behaviors instead of what I am currently deciding to do! If there is something from your past that needs to be confessed...by all means...seek ministration. What I mean is that we should take a close look at our behavior TODAY! The here and now. Definitely, the Lord doesn't want to condemn us but rather He wants to bring correction to our lives. Do you want to be healed? I know I do!

God is so loving that He deals with me during the week I am reading the currant chapter. Even up to today actually. Which I know it was only the Lord to allow me to see that there is really a situation going on that I had to confess and correct.

I have noticed that within my family, harshness in speech manifests.
How does this reflect in me? Well, I can sometimes say things that don't exactly edify or bless. Cursing is not only the use of obscene language, it is whatever speech that instead of building up tears down. If I am not blessing with my words than the opposite is cursing. Right?

It has manifested when I corrected my oldest daughter in a way that was to harsh and I immediately hear from the Lord, "I don't correct you like that!"

If there is a driver in front of me and I think they are going to slow comments like, "Jersey driver" (Please forgive me if anyone reading this IS a Jersey driver) I know...I know...terrible. Last night, as I was waiting for a car to pass by so I can park my car, the car in front of me delayed in moving (I guess to make sure I was going to take the parking) when all of a sudden my daughter uttered, "Jersey driver". As soon as I heard her say that I cringed and felt to guilty because I know she said it because she heard me say that. I corrected her but first I apologized to her for not speaking in a Christ-like manner and explaining to her that that kind of speech does not please the Lord.

And to top it all off...I had an "incident" while shopping today. I will just say that I didn't give the best example of Jesus Christ. Uuuuggghhhh! In HIS infinite mercy the Lord was just reminding me that He is dealing with me in this area and that I NEED to have ears to hear what HE is telling me!

I definitely want to continue asking the Holy Spirit to develop in me HIS language. I want to imitate the way Jesus spoke. I want to exercise self-control and be disciplined in my speech. After all, the tongue has the power of life and death, and those who love it will eat its fruit. (Prov 18:21)

Not many of you should presume to be teachers, my brothers, because you know that we who teach will be judged more strictly. We all stumble in many ways. If anyone is never at fault in what he says, he is a perfect man, able to keep his whole body in check.

When we put bits into the mouths of horses to make them obey us, we can turn the whole animal. Or take ships as an example. Although they are so large and are driven by strong winds, they are steered by a very small rudder wherever the pilot wants to go. Likewise the tongue is a small part of the body, but it makes great boasts.

Consider what a great forest is set on fire by a small spark. The tongue also is a fire, a world of evil among the parts of the body. It corrupts the whole person, sets the whole course of his life on fire, and is itself set on fire by hell. All kinds of animals, birds, reptiles and creatures of the sea are being tamed and have been tamed by man, but no man can tame the tongue. It is a restless evil, full of deadly poison.

With the tongue we praise our Lord and Father, and with it we curse men, who have been made in God's likeness. Out of the same mouth come praise and cursing. My brothers, this should not be. Can both fresh water and salt water flow from the same spring? My brothers, can a fig tree bear olives, or a grapevine bar figs? Neither can a salt spring produce fresh water.

James 3:1-12

2010-04-17T11:26:00.006-04:00

As I was ending my prayer time with the Lord this morning, God gave me this verse to meditate on:

"O Jerusalem, Jerusalem, you who kill the prophets and stone those sent to you, how often I have longed to gather your children together, as a hen gathers her chicks under her wings, but you were not willing. Look, your house is left to you desolate. For I tell you, you will not see me again until you say, 'Blessed is he who comes in the name of the Lord.'"
- Matthew 23:37

The desire of my heart and the determination of my soul is to dwell in the shelter of the Most High and rest in the shadow of the Almighty.

Is it your resolve to make the Most High your dwelling place?

Counting My Blessings

2010-04-16T12:59:00.006-04:00

1. Went to visit my mom Friday night and Karen was there...oh the fun:) Grateful no one was hurt in the process ;)<~~Karen

2. Enjoyed a quiet Saturday at home;
3. My tween accompanied me on my run this week $0.00 out of pocket!

4. My Pastor is sooo awesome;
5. Monday afternoon took my mom shopping..we laughed and laughed and laughed on the car ride back home :) Thank you Jesus for the time I spent with her!
6. My husband is such a sweetie..he surprised me a lil something I mentioned weeks ago about wanting. He remembered!!!
7. My Geni is a trooper for God's glory!
8. By the way so is my tween...boy can she shop!
9. My Co-Pastor's wife shared some valuable info on H.S curriculum and took the time to email me some info.
10 Thursday night prayer with my husband was so refreshing to my soul...I BELIEVE!!!
11. More free samples this week!

12. Free from Walgreens: (40) 4x6 prints and (2) 8x10
13. Michelle is back from her blog-cation...Yey!
14. My sister Karen, her girls, and my mom surprised me with a visit. I enjoy so much when they stop by...etch-a-sketch..lolol ;)
15. Michelle's husband blessed my tween with a desk for homeschooling...Thanks brother! Lord you are always on time!!!!

Take delight in the Lord, and He will give you your heart's desire.
Commit everything you do to the Lord.
Trust Him, and He will help you.
Psalms 37:4-5 (NLT)

Breaking Free: The Ancient Boundary Stone

2010-04-12T06:35:00.010-04:00

This chapter has us digging deep into boundaries and the importance of not stepping outside of the Lord's divine protection. Me, as a parent, I set-up rules in my home for the guidance of my children and ultimately to align their actions to God's Word since His word is ultimately the light to our path which will certainly discover any stumbling stones in our walk with HIM.

God's Word, HIS commandments are our ultimate boundary stone. If our lives are not a mirror image, a reflection of God's Word than we have left the protection of God's boundary and we are easy prey for sin.

This weeks assignment entailed answering the following questions:

Looking back at your ancient ruins, what are some boundaries you want to create for you, your marriage, your children, so that when they tour their ancient ruins they don't find what you did. You can do this individually or with your spouse. Come up with at least 5 boundaries and you might want to include why this is an important boundary for you. Pray about it and ask Holy Spirit to guide you.

1. "If you love me, you will keep my commandments." - John 14:15

The desire of my heart for my family and myself would be for us all to be able to say in truth that we love the Lord because we do obey HIS Word. I do not want it to become Christianese in us...just taught phrases that we say instead of full hearted convictions that we have and live according to what we say.

2. "Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God." - Philippians 4:6

Don't cry about it...PRAY about it!!!!

To me, this is so crucial. In the beginning of my walk with the Lord I noticed that I was very emotional (part of my ancient ruin). Crying served as an emotional release and a way of me dealing with upsets. I have since learned that yes, it is ok to cry especially when moved by the Holy Spirit...but I'd rather pray about my situation. I'd rather spend my time focusing on the Lord than weeping as if there is no hope in my GOD.

In particular I remember an incident when my husband and I were first married, we had a disagreement. I remember being on the floor of my bedroom crying. I mean crying! I felt the Holy Spirit saddened in me. I immediately started to pray and instantly I felt such a burden lift off of me. I cried, out to the Lord this time, and I saw HIS hand immediately move and heal.

I want to instill in my children the hope their is in Jesus. When a situation arises that they may seek the true will of God and to know that we are strengthened in prayer...In HIS presence.

3. "Then if my people who are called by my name will humble themselves and pray and seek my face and turn from their wicked ways, I will hear from heaven and will forgive their sins and restore their land." - Numbers 7:14

There is so much food in this verse that it can be a post all in it self however, for our intents and purpose:

The key word in this verse to me is humble. The opposite of humility is pride.
We know that the Lord hates pride (Prov 8:13) and surely destruction follows it (Prov 16:18). I want to be able to have a humble spirit to respect God...my husband and delegated authorities in the body of Christ as well as secular authorities and instill these attributes in my children.

4. "All Scripture is God-breathed and is useful for teaching, rebuking, correcting and training in righteousness," - 2 Timothy 3:16

Always revert back to God's WORD........

5. "Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. 8Love never fails." - 1 Corinthians 13:4-8

The love of God, and of our neighbor will help us endure each others weaknesses and faults, not only for a time, but to the end. And in every step toward overcoming evil with good, it is kind and gentle. In love we should not hastily condemn any one or pass a severe sentence on a slight or sudden view of things.

I want to be able to love the way Jesus loved with the intervention on the Holy Spirit I want to instill LOVE in my children.

I know that my children are influenced more by my actions than my Words. I want to instill in them with the help of the LORD a legacy of a God fearing child that walked according to God's Word and if we do stumble and fall He is available...HE welcomes us back to HIM.

In HIM all things are possible.....I praise you JESUS!!

Counting My Blessings

2010-04-09T01:26:00.005-04:00

1. Celebrated a vigil at church on Friday evening and a brother we love dearly preached and it was truly a confirmation from the Lord!!

2. Spent an exciting saturday afternoon with my tween running some errands...thank you Jesus there was no damage to the truck:)

3. Celebrated the resurrection of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ;

4. My Pastor celebrated another year in the Lord..may the Lord continue to bless him!

5. My mom invited my family to a restaurant that we have been wanting to give a try...the food was really good....but spending time with my mom was even better...she has a great laugh!

6. My baby is 8 months this week! We had fun taking pictures and eating some yummy goodies, too!

7. My tween was a big help as I finally decided to put my baby's bouncer and infant car seat away...she is always up for a challenge!

8. Overcoming the piles...one at a time..but progress is being made!

9. Again, my mom invited us to dinner at her house this time...she made a yummy dish that I will be trying hopefully soon!

10. Walgreens had an awesome deal on pics and we got 40 for free :)

11. CVS and Wags deals were pretty good this week...so thankful that the Lord opened my eyes to couponing. Help me Lord to be a good steward of what you have placed in my hands;

12. Snapped some great pictures of my baby girl showing all of her 8 teeth!!!

13. Received some more great coupons in the mail along with a free reusable bag which is so cute!

Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the Lord you God will be with you wherever you go.

Joshua 1:9 (NIV)

Breaking Free: Touring the Ancient Ruins

2010-04-05T14:27:00.015-04:00

This week's chapter had me visit the ancient ruins of my life.

A moment ago...before I started to write this post I was viewing pictures of my trip to Ecuador back in October. I viewed pictures of my grandmother who will soon celebrate her 95th earthday God willing. As I looked at her face the Lord allowed me to get a glimpse of the long and at times hard life my grandmother lived.

Through stories I have heard from my mother and other family members there were more stories of hardships lived than loving memories made. As I sat here and recalled family tales of woes....broken hearts, failed relationships, teen mothers, almost everyone being born out of wedlock and other generational curses made me realize the blessing that all things are made new through Jesus Christ.

However, it did make me realize that I went down the same road in many ways that my grandmother and mother went down. Although, I definitely do not boost on the decisions I made I do glorify the Lord because I have been able to see how HE has used that part of my life to draw me to HIM.

Trophy case? Trash can? Well, to start, the day I accepted Jesus Christ into my life would definitely be something to proudly display in my trophy case. Passing down an inheritance to my children of the saving grace of Jesus Christ....an inheritance that will never cease to end but only culminating with a ever more present relationship with our Lord is definitely trophy worthy!

Now, the trash can...ME! I don't mean that I am not worth anything but like Paul said in Philippians 3:8 (NLT), "Yes, everything else is worthless when compared with the infinite value of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord. For his sake I have discarded everything else, counting it all as garbage, so that I could gain Christ."

Anything that I may think I have acquired through my own strength in the trash...any and all idols in my heart and mind in the trash....feelings of doubt, fear, and resentment in the trash.

All generational curses...IN THE TRASH...in the name of Jesus!!!

I thank the Lord that the blood of Jesus broke all generational curses!

Counting My Blessings

2010-04-02T10:38:00.006-04:00

1. My husband accompanied me to do the monthly grocery shopping at BJ's...truly an adventure!
2. Was able to purchase some yarn to finish my crocheting my baby's cardigan for Resurrection Sunday service and my tween even had time to participate in an art project at Micheal's.

3. Sunday service was a blessing. How can someone who does not have a covenant with God threaten someone who does?
4. My mom paid us a visit and it was such a blessing for me to be able to serve her. My mom is so funny!!!!!
5. My daughter is doing great in English and we are progressing on the rest of the curriculum. I am so blessed by the Lord with the beautiful children He has given me. Thank you Jesus...they are YOURS!
6. Speaking of homeschooling, my niece did great on her test! Glory to God!!!

7. Was able to enjoy the warmer weather with my girls :)

8. Received some more great samples in the mail including a coupon for a free vitamin water!
9. Our Co-pastor blessed us with some coupons...thank you Lord!
10. My husband gave me such a thoughtful gift this week...he is so caring..thank you Lord for him.

11. My two lovely lil sisters in Christ celebrated earthdays in the Lord this week. Michelle's daughter looked adorable in her dress last night!!!!
12. Last night's service was sooo anointed. I am so glad that when purpose in our hearts to allow the Holy Spirit to take control He gives us more than we can ever ask for! Looking forward to tonight's service ;)

The Lord is my strength and my shield;
My heart trusts in HIM, and I am helped.
Psalms 28:7 NIV

Breaking Free: Obstacle of Legalism

2010-03-31T13:08:00.006-04:00

1. What causes legalism to manifest in your life?
Thoughts that anything I do is worth more or can possibly please God more than what Jesus already did at the cross for me.

2. How does legalism manifest in your life?

Thoughts like, "Wow, Syd, I can't believe you did it again." Thoughts of self-condemnation. Going over and over again in my mind what I could've, should've done.

3. How has legalism hurt you from being free?
In my marriage I felt that there were things that I as the woman of the house was supposed to do. For example, ALL the chores around the house I thought that my tween and I would handle all of them. Little did I know that I would burn out very soon with that burden that I put upon myself.

Since the birth of my daughter, I am now a stay-at-home-mom and have noticed all the many more things that require attention in the home. I so wanted to ask for help from my husband but refused to because of this legalistic point of view. Nowadays it is very different. My husband helps out in the home with the laundry, helps feed and clothe the baby and other tasks that I may need some help with. He was always very caring and thoughtful in the area of helping around the home but again I took it all upon myself when I didn't have to. Don't get me wrong I take care of most of the chores around the home but when I feel I need some additional help I am no longer feeling that I shouldn't ask because he's the "man" of the house.