Reading this chapter and the previous 22 has lead me to be completely transparent with myself and the Lord is allowing certain things to resurface. I am understanding that it is for my own benefit. I have spoken about them before but did not consider them under the microscope of this book.
I can say with so much conviction that the Lord has healed me from so many horrendous acts committed by me and to me that I am free in HIM to share them for HIS honor and glory.
In October of last year, through prayer and seeking God's direction, I visited Ecuador to see my grandmother whom I had not seen in about 15 years. One night before my trip, during prayer the Lord bought back to my memory the night I was raped by three young men when I was 15 while on a vacation in Ecuador.
Somehow through the years I had suppressed that night. When I came to Christ out of all the things I confessed and renounced that night did not surface. I had forgotten it. Well, the Lord knew it was time to deal with what happened to me over 15 years ago now. After, I confessed and forgave those three young men I felt an inner peace.
However, the enemy sure did not want me to feel like that after what I had remembered. He wanted me to feel guilt and shame. He tried to make me feel worthless and especially to hide this from my husband. To quiet the devil I did share what happened to me with my husband. I was not afraid or ashamed to reveal what happened to me.
I understand that I am a work in progress and I am ok with that. I know the good work that the Lord started in me will come to completion meeting Him face-to-face.
Remembering the night I confessed really did make me feel like the virgin daughter of my KING!
I AM HEALED
I HAVE FORGIVEN
I AM BREAKING FREE!!!!!!