Friday, June 25, 2010

Counting My Blessings

1. My SIL was married on Saturday. Our desire for them is that their marriage have a solid foundation on the ROCK!

My husband and I

2. Honored the Father's of our church and our Heavenly Father the KING! My sisters and I put together a slideshow of pictures of them which everyone enjoyed.

3. We had some visitors at Sunday's service and one of the ladies gave her life to the Lord! May she walk in His victory knowing that He is a God who restores and heals.

4. This past week was jammed pack with things to do and I am thankful that the Lord gave me strength:)

5. My mom came over Monday morning and stood with my girls so I could go on a quick errand. I am so thankful that my girls have grandma in their lives.

6. My tween has helped me so much around the house and is extremely glad her summer va-ca is now official!

7. Had a lovely conversation with my husbands cousin and I pray that she may always feel welcomed and loved at DIOS FUERTE!

8. Spoke to my dad which is always a blessing to me. Lord, have mercy on him and extend his days so that he may come to know YOU and receive YOU.

9. A women's retreat was announced on Thursday and I am praying for the Lord to provide a way so all my sisters can go!!!

10. Thank you Lord for the divine health upon the lives on my children!

Thursday, June 24, 2010

Breaking Free: To Be A Bride

In My walk with the Lord, have I been getting ready for the wedding or for the Groom?

I am remembering a heart felt testimony a BIC gave at this past Sunday's service. He mentioned that He had the mindset that he felt he had to do things to please God and when he didn't...he felt as though he had failed as though God was not pleased with him. But then, he went along saying, that he knows that God loves him no matter what. I was moved by my brother's willingness to be open and willing to share how the Lord was ministering him.

Beth describes on page 147 that she relates the word bride with "innocence". There were times when I first came to Christ that I felt anything but innocent. However, as the years go by and I am knowing my GOD and with more conviction I am understanding who I am now in HIM. My day-to-day walk reflects my intimate relationship with Jesus. I know that there are things in me that need to be broken down and dealt with but I am confident that the Lord's love for me will give me the grace to endure till the very end.

I realize that nothing I can say or do will ever change who He is but what HE has done for me has already determined who I am...


Monday, June 21, 2010

Counting My Blessings

1. Since my mom's return from her trip I am enjoying spending time with her. I am more than thankful for her.

2. Friday prayer service was such a blessing and the fellowship that followed was great. My SIC are too funny!!!

3. Bought some last minute items for my SIL's wedding and was able to use some high value coupons to get a great deal. Thank you Jesus!

4. My husband helped me in my organization venture. He sure is creative!

5. My husband's boss gave our daughter a convertible car seat...thank you Lord for Your grace over my husband's life:)

6. Went out with my girls and enjoyed a lovely walk in my neighborhood.

7. I am tremendously blessed to see how much my SIC Maria has helped my SIL organize herself for the wedding.

8. I finished decorating my SIL's candles for her wedding just in time. (will post pics)

9. Our Co-Pastor's wife celebrated another earthday and I pray that she may continue to use all that the Lord has deposited in her for HIS glory and honor!

10. I am in CHRIST and HE is in ME!

Monday, June 14, 2010

Breaking Free: Ashes Instead of Honor

How did you first come to realize that you are a virgin daughter of the King?

Reading this chapter and the previous 22 has lead me to be completely transparent with myself and the Lord is allowing certain things to resurface. I am understanding that it is for my own benefit. I have spoken about them before but did not consider them under the microscope of this book.

I can say with so much conviction that the Lord has healed me from so many horrendous acts committed by me and to me that I am free in HIM to share them for HIS honor and glory.

In October of last year, through prayer and seeking God's direction, I visited Ecuador to see my grandmother whom I had not seen in about 15 years. The Lord had given her many years and before she went home with Him...I desired to see her.  One night before my trip, during prayer, the Lord bought back to my memory the night I was raped by three young men when I was 15 while on a vacation in Ecuador.

Somehow through the years I had suppressed what happened to me that night. When I came to Christ, out of all the things I confessed and renounced, that night did not surface in my mind. I somehow detached myself completely from that night, I did not even remember it. Well, the Lord knew it was time to deal with what happened to me over 15 years ago now. After, I confessed what happened to me and forgave those three young men I felt an inner peace.  While I visited my grandmother, I happened to see one of them.  My heart still so tender and raw with emotions with what I recently had to deal with all over again, I forgave.  I made the decision to forgive just as my Heavenly Father forgave me.

However, the enemy persisted in reminding me of what happened. He wanted me to feel guilt and shame. He tried to make me feel worthless.  He wanted me to hide this from my husband. To quiet the devil, I did share what happened to me with my husband. I was not afraid or ashamed to reveal what happened to me.  There is such a freedom when we confess!

I understand that I am a work in progress and I am ok with that. I know the good work that the Lord started in me...He will complete.

Remembering the night I confessed really did make me feel like the virgin daughter of my KING!


Friday, June 11, 2010

Counting My Blessings

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1. Friday was our Co-Pastor's birthday and a BIC invited us out to have ice-cream. Pralines n Cream was delish! Very sweet surprise!

2. On Saturday the ladies of our church were invited to a women's conference at a local church. The title of the conference was "Taking the Initiative to be Blessed". The study centered around Deut. 6. That Word was right on time. The food was delicious but the time spent with my SIC and meeting other sister's of the faith was priceless!

3. Sunday My baby turned 10 months..she is almost 1!

4. My mom returned from her 6 wk vacation to Ecuador. I am glad to see her beautiful face once again!

5. She gave my family and I all these lovely goodies:)

6. My cousin sent me such a thoughtful gift. Lord, you sure did surprise didn't forget my petition! May you multiply what she spent on my gift!

7. Spent Monday with my mom. We had breakfast and lunch together. We took a walk to the ave. and she helped me pick out a dress for my SIL's wedding which is just a few days away:)

8. CVS was great this week! I was able to catch the same deals for my mom and she was amazed at all the things she received free after ecb's and coupons!

9. Had my mother over for dinner and she really enjoyed the BBQ ribs! I am really enjoying our time together.

10. More great freebies in the mail this week!

11. My SIL asked me to help with some of the decorations for the wedding. Lord, give me creativity please!

12. Glad my mom is getting a new phone. She picked a hot pink phone which I think she will look just so adorable chatting on!

13. My husband and I had a lenghty convo on my BF assignment and the Lord was revealing my heart to my husband. I am thankful that my husband is slow to speak and quick to love me through it ALL!

14. My tween helped out with alot of chores that needed to be done around the house:)

15. My SIL blessed us with some yummy food for the car ride home after church (watermelon, chicken salad and home made cheese)

For I will pour water on the thirsty land,
and streams on the dry ground;
I will pour out my Spirit on your offspring,
and my blessing on your descendants.
Isaiah 44:3

Wednesday, June 9, 2010

Breaking Free: Hearts Broken By Betrayal

What has to die in you, so that you may see Christ resurrected in you?

"He committed no sin, and no deceit was found in his mouth. When they hurled their insults at him, he did not retaliate; when he suffered, he made no threats. Instead, he entrusted himself to him who judges justly. He himself bore our sins in his body on the tree, so that we might die to sins and live for righteousness; by his wounds you have been healed. For you were like sheep going astray, but now you have returned to the Shepherd and Overseer of your souls." (1 Peter 2:22-25)

This picture portrayed a decision Jesus made to suffer in silence is humbling to say the very least. I can think back on moments where I felt insulted and when I suffered and did not respond the way the Master did. When did it become more about how I feel and how things are affecting me? When I take my eyes and fix them on anything that does not draw me closer to my Savior...the focus is no longer on HIM but on me.

It is extremely easy to say that everything in me needs to decrease so that He may increase in me. But that is how simple it truly IS! Before I was a slave to sin, but now in Christ, I have to offer myself as a slave to righteousness (Romans 6:15-23).

Sin or not to sin
Death or Life
Flesh or Spirit
Me or Jesus

No if's, and's, or but' has to be either about HIM or me.

Daily I have to make a choice.
I choose Jesus!

Friday, June 4, 2010

Counting My Blessings

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1. Made a hassle free return to Old Navy...always thankful for those types of returns:)

2. Shopping trip to BJ's was a hit with coupons and savings about $10.00!

3. On our way to BJ's stopped off at Michael's and enjoyed a craft project with my tween. We always have so much fun on our outings!

4. My daughter was privileged to be directing the children's service this past Sunday and I can say that there is hope and power in PRAYER and FASTING!

5. My husband enjoyed a lovely day off this Monday...although it did include some chores around the house and laundry but we found time to go to the park with my sis and her fam!

6. My mom is returning from her 6 week vacation this Sunday...Yipeeeeee!!!

7. Received 15 ecb's this week!

8. My daughter made her baby sister her first piggy bank..although it is not a piggy but you get the hint;)

9. Freebies this week included some high value coupons, a Dove deodorant and a qtip plastic carrying case <~I have been wanting one of those:)

10. Karen alerted me to the last pack of Huggies diapers at CVS which were on clearance $4.49 and I had a $3.00 off coupon which made for an awesome price for pampers!

11. I made a quick pit stop on Thursday to another CVS and there they were another 2 packs of diapers on clearance along with a tub of wipes for .37 cents!!!!

12. My husband has been able to direct the services for the last few weeks and I am thankful for all that the Lord has done, is doing and will continue to do in my husband's life.

13. Grateful for the love the Lord has for Dios Fuerte!

14. My husband shared some testimonies how the enemy tries the same ol' tricks at his job but thankful for the wisdom the Lord has deposited in my husband! YOU are his VICTORY!

15. I am excited about a women's conference that the sister's from my church and I will be attending....I am expecting!!!

16. H.S should be officially over next week! My tween will be glad to hear that:)

17. H.S year 2009-2010 is drawing to a close and my daughter is not the only one who has been learning this year....The Lord has dealt with me on so many different levels. I am thankful that I am learning as well;)

18. Enjoyed a walk with my girls to make a run to the girls...I really like how that sounds!

19. The Lord has been ministering me on my prayer life and He is always on time!

20. Breaking Free study is going on 22 weeks strong and I am enjoying every week of it...especially hearing and sharing with my husband!

21. Lord, thank you for this past week...thank you because I have been able to see YOU in all of it!

Tuesday, June 1, 2010

Breaking Free: Hearts Broken By Betrayal

If you had been in Jesus' place (not if you had been Jesus), how would you have dealt with Judas?

In the world I certainly dealt with my share of betrayal by people whom I had let so close to me that I thought of them more than my own family. I remember one particular incident in which I knew the person betrayed me but she didn't know I knew about it. I didn't allow her to see my hurt as I was trying to guard my "rep". I didn't want anyone including her to think that I felt so hurt and betrayed. I valued our friendship and I was shocked to say the least to realize that she didn't value it as I thought she did.

How would I have dealt with Judas' betrayal?

I would like to think I would've prayed first to receive direction from God on how to deal with Judas. There have been times where I reacted to hurt from my emotions. I would not allow God to deal with the way I was feeling first and instead would lash out.

When we consult the Lord in everything we are sure to see His glory manifested.