Friday, May 28, 2010

Counting My Blessings

1. My daughter and I ventured out early Saturday morning to Old Navy for the flip flop sale. We had so much fun :)

2. CVS and Walgreens had great deals this week on men's body wash,

3. Bumped into a neighbor and she blessed my family with some lovely books. One of them is about Psalm has powerful testimonies of God's amazing grace! Looking forward to finish reading it.

4. My mom called and I was so encouraged by her testimony of what the Lord is doing in Ecuador! May her eyes be always fixed on You, LORD!

5. Made major cleaning moves this was only the Lord! Thank you for the wisdom and determination, only in You Jesus!!!

6. My baby is getting better at walking around her playpen...and she is CRAWLING...forwards!!!!!! WOOOOOO HOOOOO:)

7. My tween was supernaturally strengthened by the Lord this week...Thank you for putting the desire in her heart and sustaining her, LORD.

8. My husband received such a lovely compliment and it is definitely a witness of God's transforming power. Thank you Jesus.

9. Great freebies in the mail this week!!!

10. Michelle and John blessed us with more cash!

11. My tween received her summer edition of God's World news.

12. My SIL gave us some home made cheese...we ate them with warm tortillas last night and it was goooood! My BIL is blessed with a wife that can cook great:)

13. Last night's preaching reminded me that despite my flaws, His grace is sufficient!

Blessed is the man who perseveres under trial,
because when he has stood the test,
he will receive the crown of life that God
has promised to those who love HIM!
James 1:12

Saturday, May 22, 2010

Breaking Free: Hearts Mended By Truth

This week's assignment is to pray. Forgive anyone who has hurt us or abused us but also to seek forgiveness. I believe that the Lord will show us if there is anything there where we have caused our little ones to sin. Then I believe, He will guide us what to do with that information. Some of us will pray and rebuke it. Some of us will talk to our children regarding it. Some of us will write a letter. Whatever the Lord directs, let's just do it.

As I reflected on being a parent, I reflected on the lives my husband and I have been entrusted with by the Lord, brings a deep sense of responsibility. We are their first witness of Jesus Christ. I have the choice to either rear them in the fear of the Lord or do it my own way. I have seen first hand the impact of children not being raised in a God fearing home and definitely have chosen that will not be the fate of my little ones.

I think back on my own childhood, as these last few chapters have us doing, I understand that there is a fine line between chastisement and abuse. There is certainly something to be said of learning from the errors of others. I have learned much from choosing not to go the same parental paths as I have witnessed from others first hand. A very common saying within our culture is, "That's how my mother did it" or "That is how I was taught". I want to be taught by the Lord and His Word on how to be a parent. How to be the mother the Lord created me to be for my children.

I know that the Lord has deposited in me, all the necessary elements that make a great and successful parent. He has equipped me with a God fearing husband and father to my children and more importantly His Word and Holy Spirit to be able to instruct my children from.

The Lord created my children with a specific purpose and a plan that must come to fruition that we must prepare them for.

I know that there is work to be done in my role as a parent, but I have the best example, My father GOD to be able to learn from.

If I remember correctly I once heard Joyce Meyer say, "I may not be where I should be but thank God I am not where I was!"

Friday, May 21, 2010

Counting My Blessings

1. Heard our Pastor preach at a local church. Grateful for the Word the Lord deposited in his spirit to edify His people. They also served coffee and great tamales. I want to learn how to make those.

2. Saturday was a little bit of rest, work and a visit by Karen and my niece.

3. A SIC presented her baby girl to the Lord this Sunday. It was a blessing to see her family once again.

4. We enjoyed a lovely car ride back home from church Sunday evening. Delight in the Lord...

5. Mondays are different with my mom still in Ecuador. Glad she is coming back soon!

6. Received a $5.00 gift card from Target and spent about $.80 each for 5 boxes of Kashi cereal.

7. My baby is pulling herself up in her playpen...she looks so adorable doing it!

8. My husband has been an immense help around the house this week...thanks lovey!

9. Pastor blessed us with some mangos....even though my baby made a mess she managed to get some in her mouth and liked it:)

10. Bro. Alexis preached/gave an exhortation to the church this Thursday...I want to seek you more me to be a good steward of my time!

Monday, May 17, 2010

Breaking Free: Hearts Broken in Childhood

This Chapter we are asked to recount episodes of our childhood and realize that although it may be painful to recount certain moments or painful experiences, God wants to heal. He is our ultimate Healer and wants us to be free from our hurtful past.

Wow, my childhood. Where should I start. There were times when as a family we shared some lovely and fun times. My parents taking my sisters and I to visit the Statue of Liberty, Bear Mountain, I even have pictures of us at Coney Island having fun on the various rides at the park. I remember my dad taking me to Riverside Park and teaching me how to ride a bike, etc.

But, for many years, the pain and hurt I experienced clouded those memories of the laughs and giggles of those days which I longed for but that would never return.

God had a plan that I was not aware of. He had a much bigger plan...a plan of salvation for my family that at the end of all the hurt would manifest. I am thankful because He was and still is that beacon of hope in the midst of despair.

I would not be aware of that hope until many years later.

This weeks h.w had me taking a long look back at my childhood with the following questions:

Think about you own childhood. Can you identify an experience that would be characteristic of God at work?

As I recall specific experiences of my childhood I can see God's mercy and His love in each situation. Despite the pain of abuse, I noticed I didn't loose the "little girl" quality. I still enjoyed playing with my dolls, having fun playing all sorts of games with my sisters. I would always kiss and hug my mom and tell her that I loved her. I enjoyed many Saturday afternoon's hearing my dad playing his guitar and singing along. That is how I prefer to remember those days.

Can you identify a handiwork of Satan?

I sure can. I can now identify his schemes of inflicting pain. His deceitfulness and desire to steal the joy and innocence of childhood that I would only be able to experience once in my lifetime.

Like Beth mentions in her book, I truly want the Healer to be glorified not the hurt. However, I do remember confessing a certain sin to a church elder and the elder confessed that they had experienced some thing quite similar. I was not glad that this person experienced what they did but I did find comfort in knowing that there was someone else who could relate exactly to the same shame and hurt.

I remember a time which the pain and abuse was to much for my little heart and body to bear that when I was about 10 yrs old was the first of a few attempts to commit suicide. At that tender age I thought there was no hope for situations getting better. I thought death would be the end all to end it all. How deceived I was. Satan whispered in my young ears words of hopelessness and self-hatred.

But God didn't allow for my limp little body to go without air for much longer. The only One who can breathe the breath of life in someone...breathed it into my little body and I recovered strength and life.

How has God used each of those experiences for your good today?

I am able to thank God for it all. I am able to see God in it all. I can see God's purpose for my life and that of my family. For God's glory and honor...I am saved and so is my family.

I do not harbor resentment in my heart for those who inflicted pain. I am thankful that through the blood of Jesus I have access to the very throne of God and I am able to pray and intercede for them.

I live thankful and learn from those experiences especially about how to love my own children and my husband.

I know that in HIM there is hope!!!!!

Thank you Lord because it could've been me... For awhile it was... But You are hear now.... Thank you Jesus!

Oh that we may know the Lord! Let us press on to know Him!
Then He will respond to us as surely as the arrival of dawn...
Hosea 6:3 NLT

Friday, May 14, 2010

Counting My Blessings

1. Enjoyed prayer time with a beloved FIC. The fruit punch was very so very good:)

2. Did my food shopping for the month..the majority at least. My tween accompanied me and we always have the greatest convo's in the car!

3. Our Pastor blessed us with a computer desk and we finally set it up It looks great!

4. We went out Saturday and enjoyed the windy afternoon:)

5. Enjoyed a lovely Sunday service honoring our Lord Jesus Christ and also the mothers of our church. Thank you Lord for depositing in us everything necessary to realize the Proverbs 31 in us.

6. Math curriculum books arrived this week. Lord, you are in control!

7. I am thankful for the tender care my tween afforded me this week especially on Wednesday. Thank you Lord because she is always so willing to serve me and in that she knows she is serving YOU!

8. My husband surprised me with my slippers..this time they were the right size!

9. A younger SIC turned 13 this week and my desire is for her to continue to consecrate herself for His glory and honor!

10. Was able to speak with my mom a few times this week and I am glad that she is at peace.

11. Saw my niece bent down in prayer on Thursday night and I thanked the Lord that they are being raised in a God fearing home.

The eyes of the Lord watch over those who do right,
and His ears are open to their prayers.
1 Peter 3:12, (NLT)

Thursday, May 13, 2010


Tuesday night while driving home from church my husband is saying some words and asking me if he was pronouncing them correctly. You see, my husband's second language is English.

He shared with me that at his job his supervisor would correct his English and try to demean him in the process. My husband rejoiced as he was telling me this. Immediately he told me, "God is so good..because while he thinks he is making me feel bad...God is using him so I can learn how to better pronounce words."

This made me think about my outlook on receiving correction. Am I always this open and thankful?

I gave a quick glance to my husband and thanked the Lord because I know the Lord is using him to mold me and to learn from.

All for your glory and honor Lord!

And my God will meet all your needs
according to his glorious riches in Christ Jesus.
Philippians 4:19

Wednesday, May 12, 2010

Breaking Free: Straight to the Heart

As we delve deeper into the study, I see God digging deeper and deeper. He wants us to go to places in our hearts that we may not have visited for quite some time.

For me, I had the mentality of, "I renounced it, prayed for it and now I am free!" While that is certainly true, did I confess everything completely. I mean did I go through every little detail..did I go through all the files? I thought I did, turns out I didn't.

This week the Lord gave me double for my trouble as my beautiful sister Maria puts it. He ministered me on several things this week that really had me searching, asking, praying and confessing.

This week's question:

"Currently, how are you preventing Christ from binding and healing your hurting/broken heart?

The Holy Spirit reminded me of this verse, "And Jesus said unto him, No man, having put his hand to the plough, and looking back, is fit for the kingdom of God." (Luke 9:62)

I was convicted in that I realized I had not yet surrendered my thoughts on my past to God.

I was noticing that I would "hang out" in my mind. In my thoughts I would travel back in time and linger about longer than I should. I would think about certain people, places or things and either laugh to myself or pondered more about them. Why would I do that? It had me thinking. (Pun intended)

Why didn't I take my thoughts captive to the obedience of Christ? I should have but I didn't.

This week it was the Lord asking me to revisit certain painful times in my life. But I already did..we went through this already I thought. The Lord asked me to revisit because there were thoughts embedded in my mind/heart that needed to be healed.

Not sure if I am conveying this clearly to you but that is how the Lord said it to me.

The mind is spiritual territory. "For who among men knows the thoughts of a man except the man's spirit within him?" (1 Cor 2:11) It is a battle ground that must surrendered completely to the will of the Father. The Father's will is for us to have the mind of Christ!

I have since renounced those thoughts which bring no honor or glory to the name of God. I have asked the Lord to forgive me and heal my mind and heart.

Jesus replied: "Love the Lord your God with all your heart
and with all your soul and with all your mind.
This is the first great commandment."
(Matthew 22:37)

Friday, May 7, 2010

Counting My Blessings

Picture 19

1. Had an awesome night of prayer and fellowship with my FIC
2. Said my farewells to mom as she headed out to Ecuador for 5 weeks. I am blessed to know that her desire is to preach the Word while she is there and win souls for the expansion of the Kingdom of Jesus Christ!!!
3. Was able to speak to many family members out in Ecuador this week.
4. Was blessed with a platter of free brownies from Boston market. They were so tasty:)
5. A neighbor of my mom blessed my daughter with such a thoughtful gift. Only you Lord!
6. Karen helped me get organized. I am determined to get through the clutter in the name of Jesus!
7. My tween is determined to get rid of her own clutter. I thank God my husband doesn't have any!
8. My baby girl is 9 months this week and I am amazed at how fast time goes. Soon I will be planning her first birthday. Any ideas on themes?
9. My husband is so thoughtful..he bought me a pair of slippers and they were 2 sizes to small:)'s the thought that counts right?
10. My daughter received her test scores back and she did excellent:) Thank you Jesus!
11. Had a lovely conversation with a younger SIC and I pray Lord that it may be you guiding her in every decision.
12. My SIC blessed me with a coupon booklet which included coupons for free items! Thanks Maria!!!!

If any of you lacks wisdom, He should ask God,
Who gives generously to all without finding fault,
and it will be given to him.

James 1:5 NIV

Monday, May 3, 2010

Breaking Free: Ancient of Days

# 1 How does knowing that God is the Ancient of Days encourage you? Provide 3 Scriptures that provide this reassurance.

Reading this chapter served as a reminder that God has been right by my side through it all. All the joyous and beautiful times in my life as well as the times I cried myself to sleep at night. I rest assured knowing that it was His loving hand that caught each one of my tears and brought comfort to my troubled heart.

I can rest knowing that the Ancient of Days has and will always be there.

I was not able to sum it up in three verses but rather in the 24 verses that make up Psalm 139:

O LORD, you have searched me
and you know me.

You know when I sit and when I rise;
you perceive my thoughts from afar.

You discern my going out and my lying down;
you are familiar with all my ways.

Before a word is on my tongue
you know it completely, O LORD.

You hem me in—behind and before;
you have laid your hand upon me.

Such knowledge is too wonderful for me,
too lofty for me to attain.

Where can I go from your Spirit?
Where can I flee from your presence?

If I go up to the heavens, you are there;
if I make my bed in the depths, you are there.

If I rise on the wings of the dawn,
if I settle on the far side of the sea,

even there your hand will guide me,
your right hand will hold me fast.

If I say, "Surely the darkness will hide me
and the light become night around me,"

even the darkness will not be dark to you;
the night will shine like the day,
for darkness is as light to you.

For you created my inmost being;
you knit me together in my mother's womb.

I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
your works are wonderful,
I know that full well.

My frame was not hidden from you
when I was made in the secret place.
When I was woven together in the depths of the earth,

your eyes saw my unformed body.
All the days ordained for me
were written in your book
before one of them came to be.

How precious to me are your thoughts, O God!
How vast is the sum of them!

Were I to count them,
they would outnumber the grains of sand.
When I awake,
I am still with you.

If only you would slay the wicked, O God!
Away from me, you bloodthirsty men!

They speak of you with evil intent;
your adversaries misuse your name.

Do I not hate those who hate you, O LORD,
and abhor those who rise up against you?

I have nothing but hatred for them;
I count them my enemies.

Search me, O God, and know my heart;
test me and know my anxious thoughts.

See if there is any offensive way in me,
and lead me in the way everlasting.

#2 If there was 1 thing (besides the salvation found in Jesus) that you could instill in your future generations what would it be?

"For God did not give us a spirit of timidity, but a spirit of power, of love and of self-discipline." (2 Timothy 1:7 NIV)

This verse encompasses my desire for those who will come after me.

During my teenage season of life "disciplined" was certainly not a word anyone could use to describe me. I lacked discipline in just about every area of my life. Well, to do positive things at least because I had sinning down pact. In my heart there was the desire to accomplish many things. However, many if not all became a distant memory because I lacked the self-discipline to accomplish goals I had set up for my self.

I can remember times I lost my peace or did not give a good witness of Jesus when not walking according to the Spirit and letting my flesh take over a situation. By not exercising self-control I certainly do not reflect Jesus to my children or husband. I want those that follow to be disciplined in their relationship with the Lord. To be disciplined in loving and obeying God which ultimately reflects in their obedience to His Word.

In my walk with the Lord I have to constantly remind myself about being self-disciplined in certain areas of my life but I consider them conquered in the name of Jesus. I am breaking free and operate under the spirit of self-discipline.